Flea

You didn't show up.

And so here I am.

The last time I got to see someone I loved, someone who asked me to start playing bass, someone who I expressed my love for deeply and vice versa, someone who gave me gifts of paintings that he made and love and poetry.

He was an artist and always loved.

was there for me in that way.

And the last time I see him, I was mad at him, you know, instead of like being, I love you so much, like, please don't leave me, you know?

And I wish that I would have known more to be there to help.

For sure.

I said father, and I meant stepfather.

My stepdad, that's okay.

Yeah, but my father was an alcoholic as well, so it was that same addiction, like you're going to drink to be okay.

Different, but the same.

I think for me...

What stopped me from being a heroin addict, and I don't know, maybe it's just like my makeup, I don't know, but I always felt guided by things that were so beautiful to me.

The sound of John Coltrane playing his saxophone, the way that Somerset Maugham's words flow off the page.

These things, you know, the way that Kareem Abdul-Jabbar shot a skyhook, these things are so beautiful.

And when I would do heroin, and I did it a lot, and I loved it, don't get me wrong, and I could have easily been an addict, but when I would wake up the day after doing hard drugs and I would feel my energy diminished, I would feel low, I would feel like I'm not as available for myself, I couldn't do the things that I loved.

I couldn't, like it would, they would be diminished.

And it just became clear to me that like, look, I, I love these things.

I don't want stuff to stop me from these things.