Gareth

Yeah, I think I split his skull open.

Yeah, I think I split his skull open.

Yeah. I think I actually stamped on his head, Chloe. If you really want to know the truth. It sounded like a fucking shotgun going off. Like I said, not my proudest moment.

Yeah. I think I actually stamped on his head, Chloe. If you really want to know the truth. It sounded like a fucking shotgun going off. Like I said, not my proudest moment.

Well, obviously it had an effect on me. I mean, we all know that. We all know that a young boy at 14 years old having sex with a 27-year-old teacher, that's going to have a certain effect on him.

Well, obviously it had an effect on me. I mean, we all know that. We all know that a young boy at 14 years old having sex with a 27-year-old teacher, that's going to have a certain effect on him.

You know, I went for the ones that would develop sexually. You know, I didn't go for nice girls after that. Because nice girls weren't where I was at. Like, even today, I have a huge problem with sex. Sex isn't an emotional thing to me. I don't engage my fucking emotions. Sex is a physical act to me. Then that's not right.

You know, I went for the ones that would develop sexually. You know, I didn't go for nice girls after that. Because nice girls weren't where I was at. Like, even today, I have a huge problem with sex. Sex isn't an emotional thing to me. I don't engage my fucking emotions. Sex is a physical act to me. Then that's not right.

But when you introduce the sex the way I was introduced to sex, that the sexual act isn't some kind of secret that's held in a little box, where your emotions must stop now because we can't express anything outside this room.

But when you introduce the sex the way I was introduced to sex, that the sexual act isn't some kind of secret that's held in a little box, where your emotions must stop now because we can't express anything outside this room.

That's where self-harm comes from as well. I was putting out cigarettes in my hands from when I was 16. I was cutting myself. And it led up to like three suicide attempts before I was 23. But I still have the urges.

That's where self-harm comes from as well. I was putting out cigarettes in my hands from when I was 16. I was cutting myself. And it led up to like three suicide attempts before I was 23. But I still have the urges.

In my mind for many years, like, that wasn't really her fault. In fact, I probably took blame for it because, you know... I walked her home. I pursued her. If you like. I didn't have to walk her home. It must have been my fault. And I still do that today. I still do that. It's automatic.

In my mind for many years, like, that wasn't really her fault. In fact, I probably took blame for it because, you know... I walked her home. I pursued her. If you like. I didn't have to walk her home. It must have been my fault. And I still do that today. I still do that. It's automatic.

Mein Sohn wurde 14 Jahre alt und ich konnte immer noch seine kleinen Knöpfe sehen. Er wollte mit mir nach Hause gehen und Xbox spielen. Das hat mich hart gefühlt. Ich erinnere mich, dass diese Frau nicht deine Freundin war. Sie war krank. Denn was für eine Frau ist interessiert in diesem Jungen hier?

Mein Sohn wurde 14 Jahre alt und ich konnte immer noch seine kleinen Knöpfe sehen. Er wollte mit mir nach Hause gehen und Xbox spielen. Das hat mich hart gefühlt. Ich erinnere mich, dass diese Frau nicht deine Freundin war. Sie war krank. Denn was für eine Frau ist interessiert in diesem Jungen hier?

Aber als ich herausgefunden habe, dass sie lehnt, habe ich sie auf einem Website für eine Schule gefunden. Jetzt, als ich das herausgefunden habe, oh nein, da habe ich mich verarscht.

Aber als ich herausgefunden habe, dass sie lehnt, habe ich sie auf einem Website für eine Schule gefunden. Jetzt, als ich das herausgefunden habe, oh nein, da habe ich mich verarscht.

Du musst dich erinnern, bis zu diesem Punkt fühlte ich mich immer noch schuld, dass jemand, der in der Universität trainiert wurde, als Lehrer, seinen Job für immer verloren hat. Das ist das, was ich gesagt habe, das ist das, was ich bis 2014 glaubte, bis dann.

Du musst dich erinnern, bis zu diesem Punkt fühlte ich mich immer noch schuld, dass jemand, der in der Universität trainiert wurde, als Lehrer, seinen Job für immer verloren hat. Das ist das, was ich gesagt habe, das ist das, was ich bis 2014 glaubte, bis dann.