Gemma Spake

Even when the reason you're away from home is...

is a good thing is a great thing even when it's because you you've gone to college or you're moving on with your life or you're traveling to places that like you only ever dreamed about you've moved cities for like an amazing opportunity for love and

There is still this recognition that you are saying goodbye to something and a way of living and a way of existing that is really comfortable and familiar and that you love.

You're grieving things maybe never being the same again.

You're grieving the security.

You're grieving the past.

And you're missing not just the place, not just the location, but the memories.

You're missing a system.

You're missing a routine.

You're missing relationships.

Homesickness is so much more complicated and hard that I think a lot of people give it credit.

That's what makes this all so emotionally painful.

It is a full body experience and today I feel like we need to just talk about it in depth.

It's also strange because

You also know in this period of life that you need to experience some hard emotions, homesickness being one of them, to grow.

It's kind of the price you pay for getting out of your comfort zone and seeing the world.

There are so many people who feel this way and who feel very frustrated, but also feel very indebted to the experience and guilty.

And it can be hard to enjoy the moment that you're in and also to see clearly the

how life is going and what you want in the future and whether this is a place you should be or whether you should go home.

It's a very confusing emotion.