Glen Phillips

And so I had somewhere between 18 months to two years of excruciating nerve pain. And I didn't take any meds. And so for me, that was a period of... Yeah, so that was a period of just... Throughout a day, my first wife, her joke was like, why couldn't it ever be handgasms? If you're getting random nerve messages, it's never, I'm being tickled with feathers. I mean, it's never... It was never nice.

And so I had somewhere between 18 months to two years of excruciating nerve pain. And I didn't take any meds. And so for me, that was a period of... Yeah, so that was a period of just... Throughout a day, my first wife, her joke was like, why couldn't it ever be handgasms? If you're getting random nerve messages, it's never, I'm being tickled with feathers. I mean, it's never... It was never nice.

It's always burning and cutting sensations. And I would just have to stop in my tracks and breathe and reset my system. And I didn't want to get addicted. And I didn't want to... be checked out. And I knew that would be worse than any pain I could have. I did it without. And so for me,

It's always burning and cutting sensations. And I would just have to stop in my tracks and breathe and reset my system. And I didn't want to get addicted. And I didn't want to... be checked out. And I knew that would be worse than any pain I could have. I did it without. And so for me,

It's always burning and cutting sensations. And I would just have to stop in my tracks and breathe and reset my system. And I didn't want to get addicted. And I didn't want to... be checked out. And I knew that would be worse than any pain I could have. I did it without. And so for me,

In my own way, I'd done Vipassana meditation before, and it was a different kind of situational mindfulness of learning to breathe through pain and learning to experience extreme discomfort and kind of find stillness in the middle of that. And so that was a large part of the practice for me. And I... And then I got back on the road a lot of that because I had to. And I've had a strange response.

In my own way, I'd done Vipassana meditation before, and it was a different kind of situational mindfulness of learning to breathe through pain and learning to experience extreme discomfort and kind of find stillness in the middle of that. And so that was a large part of the practice for me. And I... And then I got back on the road a lot of that because I had to. And I've had a strange response.

In my own way, I'd done Vipassana meditation before, and it was a different kind of situational mindfulness of learning to breathe through pain and learning to experience extreme discomfort and kind of find stillness in the middle of that. And so that was a large part of the practice for me. And I... And then I got back on the road a lot of that because I had to. And I've had a strange response.

At this point, I feel like I get to tour, and I feel very lucky and happy. There have been points in my life where I was, after the band broke up, I couldn't get a record deal. Toad wasn't playing. I had three kids, and I had to go on tour. And there were times where I probably literally should have been institutionalized instead of being touring, where my mental health was not good. Good.

At this point, I feel like I get to tour, and I feel very lucky and happy. There have been points in my life where I was, after the band broke up, I couldn't get a record deal. Toad wasn't playing. I had three kids, and I had to go on tour. And there were times where I probably literally should have been institutionalized instead of being touring, where my mental health was not good. Good.

At this point, I feel like I get to tour, and I feel very lucky and happy. There have been points in my life where I was, after the band broke up, I couldn't get a record deal. Toad wasn't playing. I had three kids, and I had to go on tour. And there were times where I probably literally should have been institutionalized instead of being touring, where my mental health was not good. Good.

And I remember getting letters from that time of people saying, you clearly don't want to be here. It's a waste of my money. It's a waste of your time for you to be on the road. It was apparent to people what bad shape I was in. And I lost a lot of audience to that. That's really tough. Yeah. And feeling entitled, feeling disappointed, feeling angry. And so I had some seriously bitter years there.

And I remember getting letters from that time of people saying, you clearly don't want to be here. It's a waste of my money. It's a waste of your time for you to be on the road. It was apparent to people what bad shape I was in. And I lost a lot of audience to that. That's really tough. Yeah. And feeling entitled, feeling disappointed, feeling angry. And so I had some seriously bitter years there.

And I remember getting letters from that time of people saying, you clearly don't want to be here. It's a waste of my money. It's a waste of your time for you to be on the road. It was apparent to people what bad shape I was in. And I lost a lot of audience to that. That's really tough. Yeah. And feeling entitled, feeling disappointed, feeling angry. And so I had some seriously bitter years there.

So I feel like I got a lot of, I learned resilience out of this. And even, I'm sort of philosophically, that even our perception of our own body is an illusion. And it's something about nerve damage to me is like a constant reminder that I am not necessarily my body. My perception of my body is a, it's based on a whole lot of nerves and a whole lot of neurons. And

So I feel like I got a lot of, I learned resilience out of this. And even, I'm sort of philosophically, that even our perception of our own body is an illusion. And it's something about nerve damage to me is like a constant reminder that I am not necessarily my body. My perception of my body is a, it's based on a whole lot of nerves and a whole lot of neurons. And

So I feel like I got a lot of, I learned resilience out of this. And even, I'm sort of philosophically, that even our perception of our own body is an illusion. And it's something about nerve damage to me is like a constant reminder that I am not necessarily my body. My perception of my body is a, it's based on a whole lot of nerves and a whole lot of neurons. And

We build an amazing map for our bodies in space that's mostly accurate. and the changes over time, but having this, like, little node of inaccuracy, right? A part of my body that feels twice as big as it is. It feels puffy and strange. And I know that's just, like, wiring in my mind, trying to make sense of a blank spot there.

We build an amazing map for our bodies in space that's mostly accurate. and the changes over time, but having this, like, little node of inaccuracy, right? A part of my body that feels twice as big as it is. It feels puffy and strange. And I know that's just, like, wiring in my mind, trying to make sense of a blank spot there.

We build an amazing map for our bodies in space that's mostly accurate. and the changes over time, but having this, like, little node of inaccuracy, right? A part of my body that feels twice as big as it is. It feels puffy and strange. And I know that's just, like, wiring in my mind, trying to make sense of a blank spot there.