Glennon Doyle

We've talked about this.

I think that it's another thing that I'm going to have to figure out.

Sometimes it's something that is very beautiful and good.

It can get in the way.

That's another reordering that I have to figure out.

Like I don't want my 50s.

I'm almost 50 and I really don't want my 50s to be based on any sort of like arranging people I love to make

work things or to, so I don't know what I'm going to do about that.

But what I'm saying is it's like landslide in a lot of areas and maybe it's beautiful in a way of like, you know how they have those controlled fires of places because sometimes things have to be on fire for like absolute newness to come.

I'm hopeful that that's what this is.

And I feel like maybe menopause is

spiritually important because I am unable to tolerate stuff that I was able to tolerate before.

And so now I think the problem isn't that I can't tolerate this now.

The problem is that I tolerated this shit for so long.

And so it's like the body's way of saying, all right, we're not even going to give you whatever chemicals you need to tolerate it anymore, I guess.

So I haven't gotten to the point where I can see the beauty that's coming from it, but I can feel in my bones that it's spiritually important and probably for my best next life.

I just don't know what the next life is.

Is it?

Yes.

It's like every morning I'm like, is this flash of rage inside me from the fallen estrogen, the fallen democracy, the fall?