Hannah Murray

I mean, I was on the one hand incredibly happy and like getting an acting job on your birthday is kind of an amazing thing to happen.

Like what a gift.

But I was really paranoid, I think, that this amazing thing had happened and I thought it's definitely going to get taken away from me.

Like something bad is going to happen.

Something really bad is going to happen to me.

that'll mean I won't be able to do the show.

And there was a bit of a wait from sort of getting the part to actually starting filming.

And I found those weeks really stressful because I had these visions of, yeah, being hit by a car or something and not being able to film.

And I just, I think I always found like good news or success really difficult to trust.

um back then and so when you look back on that now and that that makeup in your head did you have mental health problems as a young person would you say yeah i i would say that i did i think the the conversation about mental health that we're having a bit more now i think there's like still a lot of work to be done but i think really no one was really talking about um

It was kind of like, oh, you're a teenager, you've got mood swings or like, oh, you're a bit anxious, get over it kind of felt attitude.

And I felt like I really kind of lived in my head back then.

And it was a very strange place to be.

And it was quite hard to really talk to anyone about it or open up.

And definitely I didn't kind of.

get any idea there was no idea in my head that i could get help for anything i was feeling or thinking i just thought this is the way i am and it's it's quite hard but yeah yeah and then another strand in this is that you grew up in the peak harry potter years you think that had an effect on you as well

I think it was when I was writing the book, when I was writing the make-believe, and I was thinking about this journey I had of kind of coming to believe in magic and that kind of completely taking over my life.

I was thinking back to like, well, when did I first think about magic?

When did I believe in magic as a child?

And I think...