Harry Jowsey

especially when he's sleeping that deep and that was the hardest thing because the snores were so loud and you really you don't want them to stop but you really do want them to stop and watching his head fall back and then the breaths get bigger and bigger and then slow down that was really really difficult but the beautiful thing about

especially when he's sleeping that deep and that was the hardest thing because the snores were so loud and you really you don't want them to stop but you really do want them to stop and watching his head fall back and then the breaths get bigger and bigger and then slow down that was really really difficult but the beautiful thing about

especially when he's sleeping that deep and that was the hardest thing because the snores were so loud and you really you don't want them to stop but you really do want them to stop and watching his head fall back and then the breaths get bigger and bigger and then slow down that was really really difficult but the beautiful thing about

the new zealand culture and where we grew up was that uh my sisters had a whole spiritual ceremony for him again like we all we all have different beliefs we didn't know what we believe in we didn't we just know there's something there and yeah all we want to believe that there's something there because it's going to make us feel better for sure so when we're in the hospice um my sister and my brother washed his body they had an elder come in and put essential oils

the new zealand culture and where we grew up was that uh my sisters had a whole spiritual ceremony for him again like we all we all have different beliefs we didn't know what we believe in we didn't we just know there's something there and yeah all we want to believe that there's something there because it's going to make us feel better for sure so when we're in the hospice um my sister and my brother washed his body they had an elder come in and put essential oils

the new zealand culture and where we grew up was that uh my sisters had a whole spiritual ceremony for him again like we all we all have different beliefs we didn't know what we believe in we didn't we just know there's something there and yeah all we want to believe that there's something there because it's going to make us feel better for sure so when we're in the hospice um my sister and my brother washed his body they had an elder come in and put essential oils

on i guess good spots in his body i don't know where um hopefully not naughty spots but they they washed him got him ready and then uh myself my brother-in-law and a few other men came back and put his body in the coffin and that was that was top 10 hardest things ever because for sure this guy was just smiling and laughing with us yeah

on i guess good spots in his body i don't know where um hopefully not naughty spots but they they washed him got him ready and then uh myself my brother-in-law and a few other men came back and put his body in the coffin and that was that was top 10 hardest things ever because for sure this guy was just smiling and laughing with us yeah

on i guess good spots in his body i don't know where um hopefully not naughty spots but they they washed him got him ready and then uh myself my brother-in-law and a few other men came back and put his body in the coffin and that was that was top 10 hardest things ever because for sure this guy was just smiling and laughing with us yeah

and the hardest thing was like his oh actually i'll tell you the the you'll probably enjoy this and maybe you might have a definition for it or be able to help explain it a little bit better but when my dad was saying that hey like it's gonna go black well i came back to the body after a few hours and um my sisters and stuff and my brother let me just sit with him for a

and the hardest thing was like his oh actually i'll tell you the the you'll probably enjoy this and maybe you might have a definition for it or be able to help explain it a little bit better but when my dad was saying that hey like it's gonna go black well i came back to the body after a few hours and um my sisters and stuff and my brother let me just sit with him for a

and the hardest thing was like his oh actually i'll tell you the the you'll probably enjoy this and maybe you might have a definition for it or be able to help explain it a little bit better but when my dad was saying that hey like it's gonna go black well i came back to the body after a few hours and um my sisters and stuff and my brother let me just sit with him for a

And I remember just going to my dad like, dude, just tell me that there's something on the other side. I was like, can you make a bird hit the window? Can you blow out one of these candles? Can you have a tree fall over? I was yelling at him. I'm like, can you just make me believe that there's something? Because I don't know. But I want to have something. I want to know that you're here with me.

And I remember just going to my dad like, dude, just tell me that there's something on the other side. I was like, can you make a bird hit the window? Can you blow out one of these candles? Can you have a tree fall over? I was yelling at him. I'm like, can you just make me believe that there's something? Because I don't know. But I want to have something. I want to know that you're here with me.

And I remember just going to my dad like, dude, just tell me that there's something on the other side. I was like, can you make a bird hit the window? Can you blow out one of these candles? Can you have a tree fall over? I was yelling at him. I'm like, can you just make me believe that there's something? Because I don't know. But I want to have something. I want to know that you're here with me.

And nothing happened.

And nothing happened.

And nothing happened.

and so i laid on on his chest and i gave him a big hug and his the hardest thing is remembering just how cold his face was like yo you give your dad a hug and it's a warm you feel the stubble and i was remember just anytime i hug him i feel that warm stubble and then that hug it was just so cold yeah i was like oh this sucks there's nothing in it goes black but as i pulled off i checked my phone it was four four four

and so i laid on on his chest and i gave him a big hug and his the hardest thing is remembering just how cold his face was like yo you give your dad a hug and it's a warm you feel the stubble and i was remember just anytime i hug him i feel that warm stubble and then that hug it was just so cold yeah i was like oh this sucks there's nothing in it goes black but as i pulled off i checked my phone it was four four four