Heather Radke

I mean, he got to hang out with Bobby Kennedy, you know.

I think he thought his life should be something like that, you know, that level of influence.

I think his own self-esteem and the fragility of it was...

know one of his struggles for his entire life he's got all this power all this influence all this accomplishment under you know twice valedictorian just constantly amassing successes and yet there are always being more to do and uh then every time he'd see his mom you know

No, but he'd just be annoyed and, you know, frustrated.

Oh, big blind spots.

Yeah.

Yeah.

He'd feel bad about it, especially if somebody would say something.

He was very, very good at cleaning up his messes, but he could be very embarrassing and go out to dinner and kind of post heart attack.

Just, you know, he'd lose it at times.

And again, I think a lot of that was due to him being on this journey of trying to be his real self, but also being...

He never really... I don't even need to add the word really.

He never developed an intimate one-to-one relationship that...

was just his.

And every so once in a while, I'd get a call from him that he was just, you know, almost suicidal just because he longed for intimacy, closeness, and the best he could get were these one-night stands.

My kids grew up with Uncle John around all the time.

We did a lot of things together, vacationed.

He would be at our house, two if not three weekends a month, especially when the session was out.

But even when session was in, he'd prioritize spending time with our family.