Holly Deane-Johns

Little did I know that trying it that one time, that just fucked me.

That night was the beginning of the end for me.

I didn't know it at the time, but that's exactly what it was.

And I like to make this clear as well because when I tell this story, you know, people tend to put a lot of shit on my mum, like, oh, what a fucked parent, you know, blah, blah, blah.

We were so naive about all this type of stuff.

If my mother had have known...

what that night of having that snort would do to me there's no way in the world she would have said yes it's just she wouldn't um we just didn't know about it we didn't know what would happen we didn't know about the addiction and and all that thing you know these days it's very openly talked about especially meth addiction now you know back in my day it was heroin um but it wasn't talked about like it is today so yeah like we had no idea what what would happen

For a person trying heroin for the first time, one of two things will happen.

You'll have it and you'll just feel amazing.

You'll just want to keep that feeling forever.

Or on the other side of that, you will feel extremely sick.

You will start vomiting.

Now, if I had have had that experience, I would never have touched it again.

But I didn't have that experience.

I had the great part of that.

And I just wanted that feeling all the time.

It's hard for people to wrap their heads around that if they've never been an addict, you know.

But that's exactly what it was.

It was that one time.

And I was gone.