Holly Wainwright

Because as it was, I stayed in the position I was in, took six months off, went back working full time, not getting paid an editor's salary, not getting the editor's glory.

So I could have done it.

My doubting myself about that was wrong.

So as I say, it's not a regret, but it was I think my instincts on that decision weren't right because I didn't know what I could do.

I don't think, I think I just didn't want to be pregnant and a new mom and have the job.

It's not that I didn't want them.

It's not that, so I didn't say I'm pregnant.

What do you think?

I said, I'm pregnant.

So no, I'm not going to take the job.

Right.

So it wasn't, and there was another opportunity that came along the next time I was pregnant.

Clearly things happen at the same time.

When I did the other way and I didn't say no, I said, yes, but you need to know I'm pregnant.

And funnily the phone never rang after that.

But it is interesting because I think I underestimated myself and what I was capable of in terms of balancing work and family, which I had to do anyway, as I say.

But in the scheme of things, I don't regret it.

You know what I don't want?

Because she was like, I don't want to be answering emails at 4am like this other senior staffer that I know.

I don't want to be doing that.