Ian Dunt

And it's not immediately obvious that there's an answer to that question.

I certainly don't have one now.

But you're sort of a bit too young to handle the emotional impact of the absence of an answer.

So I was really quite ravaged by sort of by existential crisis and bleakness and just lack of point, really.

And then I ended up in some summer camp, you know, archery and go karts and sort of things like that.

And they were quite good about it.

They were quite sensible.

I mean, they didn't do it too hard.

They were not really to blame here.

But, you know, they take you off at one point during the thing and sort of, you know, tell you about how much Jesus loves you and there's a point to all this and there's meaning.

I remember at the time it felt like a life raft.

You know, just grab the life raft because that makes things quite clear.

There's a forward line of direction and we can get rid of some of this crushing doubt that you're experiencing.

But my interpretation of this stuff, I suppose, again, because you're full of these hormones,

was much more vicious than the one that they put out.

You know, within six months of this stuff, I was saying things which now I think back and obviously shudder.

Like, you know, if you don't believe, you're going to go to hell.

Anyone that, you know, if you're having sex before marriage... It was all very... It had to get very black and white and brutal and unkind.

Did you feel that self-righteousness or were you overcoming some kind of inner doubt as you said that?

I remember feeling the self-righteousness.