Ian Fidance

Yeah, yeah. Big time gutter drunk. Couldn't keep my life together. But I would do coke just to keep it going so I could drink more, you know. But it was all, you know, because I had an emptiness inside of me that I couldn't fill, you know.

A man. A man. Another man.

A man. A man. Another man.

A man. A man. Another man.

Well, any sort of addictive behavior is to fill some sort of void. Like when I just mentioned that I'll recognize I'm on my phone because I'm feeling scared. I'm feeling trepidatious. I'm feeling anxious. I'm feeling like I want to procrastinate. That's all the same things I would do.

Well, any sort of addictive behavior is to fill some sort of void. Like when I just mentioned that I'll recognize I'm on my phone because I'm feeling scared. I'm feeling trepidatious. I'm feeling anxious. I'm feeling like I want to procrastinate. That's all the same things I would do.

Well, any sort of addictive behavior is to fill some sort of void. Like when I just mentioned that I'll recognize I'm on my phone because I'm feeling scared. I'm feeling trepidatious. I'm feeling anxious. I'm feeling like I want to procrastinate. That's all the same things I would do.

I'd like to say while I was drinking out of fear, blah, blah, but I really loved being fucked up and not being in reality because the reality I had was not the reality that I wanted.

I'd like to say while I was drinking out of fear, blah, blah, but I really loved being fucked up and not being in reality because the reality I had was not the reality that I wanted.

I'd like to say while I was drinking out of fear, blah, blah, but I really loved being fucked up and not being in reality because the reality I had was not the reality that I wanted.

And so drinking and getting away from that was so much easier than dealing with the hand I'd been dealt in life and the things I'd gone through and facing X, Y, and Z, you know, just as on a micro scale, like the phone is so much easier to get lost in than dealing with the fact that like, oh shit, I got to get my taxes done. I have to make this difficult phone call.

And so drinking and getting away from that was so much easier than dealing with the hand I'd been dealt in life and the things I'd gone through and facing X, Y, and Z, you know, just as on a micro scale, like the phone is so much easier to get lost in than dealing with the fact that like, oh shit, I got to get my taxes done. I have to make this difficult phone call.

And so drinking and getting away from that was so much easier than dealing with the hand I'd been dealt in life and the things I'd gone through and facing X, Y, and Z, you know, just as on a micro scale, like the phone is so much easier to get lost in than dealing with the fact that like, oh shit, I got to get my taxes done. I have to make this difficult phone call.

I have this deadline I have to reach. So it's easy to go to that little addictive thing I have in my pocket.

I have this deadline I have to reach. So it's easy to go to that little addictive thing I have in my pocket.

I have this deadline I have to reach. So it's easy to go to that little addictive thing I have in my pocket.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

He's so sleek and nice. I feel good and I can poop whenever I want.