Jace Yawnick

I don't know if I should call it grief, but I mean, all this time that just I spent fighting for my life and staring death in the face every day and going through procedures and spinal taps. It's a lot to digest. And every time I finish a checkpoint, a major treatment, like when I finished chemo,

I don't know if I should call it grief, but I mean, all this time that just I spent fighting for my life and staring death in the face every day and going through procedures and spinal taps. It's a lot to digest. And every time I finish a checkpoint, a major treatment, like when I finished chemo,

I don't know if I should call it grief, but I mean, all this time that just I spent fighting for my life and staring death in the face every day and going through procedures and spinal taps. It's a lot to digest. And every time I finish a checkpoint, a major treatment, like when I finished chemo,

And when I just recently finished radiation, a piece of that weight is lifted off my shoulders and it's emotional and it's intense and it just feels like I'm that much closer to being finished. So right now I'm in this middle ground of, I just finished the hard stuff. I just finished, I'm done with the chemo, I'm done with the radiation.

And when I just recently finished radiation, a piece of that weight is lifted off my shoulders and it's emotional and it's intense and it just feels like I'm that much closer to being finished. So right now I'm in this middle ground of, I just finished the hard stuff. I just finished, I'm done with the chemo, I'm done with the radiation.

And when I just recently finished radiation, a piece of that weight is lifted off my shoulders and it's emotional and it's intense and it just feels like I'm that much closer to being finished. So right now I'm in this middle ground of, I just finished the hard stuff. I just finished, I'm done with the chemo, I'm done with the radiation.

The fatigue is slowly getting better every day that I'm out of radiation, although it's still present. And I'm just enjoying that. And on the other side, I do have this, this anxiety where I have all these what ifs, but I try my best to pay those no, no attention. If I can, I try to steer clear of those and just focus on what I know right now and what I know today.

The fatigue is slowly getting better every day that I'm out of radiation, although it's still present. And I'm just enjoying that. And on the other side, I do have this, this anxiety where I have all these what ifs, but I try my best to pay those no, no attention. If I can, I try to steer clear of those and just focus on what I know right now and what I know today.

The fatigue is slowly getting better every day that I'm out of radiation, although it's still present. And I'm just enjoying that. And on the other side, I do have this, this anxiety where I have all these what ifs, but I try my best to pay those no, no attention. If I can, I try to steer clear of those and just focus on what I know right now and what I know today.

And when I get to that point where I do the next PET scan and they, They tell me what I need to know. I'll process it then. But for right now, I'm just trying to enjoy the moment and being here and being present.

And when I get to that point where I do the next PET scan and they, They tell me what I need to know. I'll process it then. But for right now, I'm just trying to enjoy the moment and being here and being present.

And when I get to that point where I do the next PET scan and they, They tell me what I need to know. I'll process it then. But for right now, I'm just trying to enjoy the moment and being here and being present.

Yeah, it's, I, I posted so much of the raw truth of what this looks like, but I wasn't able to grab a camera in every moment and grab my phone. And I had some really dark,

Yeah, it's, I, I posted so much of the raw truth of what this looks like, but I wasn't able to grab a camera in every moment and grab my phone. And I had some really dark,

Yeah, it's, I, I posted so much of the raw truth of what this looks like, but I wasn't able to grab a camera in every moment and grab my phone. And I had some really dark,

And I've talked about that in a few videos I've posted, but there are days where I was getting chemo and I was so weak and my dad's standing there with me and he's watching his son get another chemo bag hooked up and he's staring and he's just wondering, how can I take care of my son right now? What can I do? you know, to see my dad in that spot where he wants to do everything.

And I've talked about that in a few videos I've posted, but there are days where I was getting chemo and I was so weak and my dad's standing there with me and he's watching his son get another chemo bag hooked up and he's staring and he's just wondering, how can I take care of my son right now? What can I do? you know, to see my dad in that spot where he wants to do everything.

And I've talked about that in a few videos I've posted, but there are days where I was getting chemo and I was so weak and my dad's standing there with me and he's watching his son get another chemo bag hooked up and he's staring and he's just wondering, how can I take care of my son right now? What can I do? you know, to see my dad in that spot where he wants to do everything.

He wants to take this away from me. You know, he wants nothing more than for me to be better. Um, and for him to not be able to do anything and for everybody to be so weak, those are some dark times. Those are some dark moments and you, all you can do is just do your best. That's it. You could just do your best in that moment.

He wants to take this away from me. You know, he wants nothing more than for me to be better. Um, and for him to not be able to do anything and for everybody to be so weak, those are some dark times. Those are some dark moments and you, all you can do is just do your best. That's it. You could just do your best in that moment.