Jake

Yeah, so she tells me, you know, you've got to go do this.

She pretty much told me that we can't do any more therapy until I go do this, actually.

Like she took care of me and we still had our meetings and stuff, but she literally told me, you know, we're not building on anything or fixing anything because you can't focus on anything except what's wrong with you right now.

So she recommends it.

I do the call and...

This is another point I want to bring out to the people, to the veterans and first responders and stuff that are going through it is I could have done this two years ago and been better all this time.

And I got on the call, everything sounded amazing.

I signed up and that typical, I don't know how to put it, that typical like attitude of somebody in the military is somebody else needs it more than I do.

At least I know in the special operations community, that's how most of us feel.

And that's what went through my mind is somebody needs this more than me, so I'm not going to do it.

And I chose not to go for two years, which...

I won't call it a mistake because the retreat I ended up going on was I was supposed to meet the guys that were there.

I was supposed to be with the providers that were there.

And it came at a time in my life that was right.

So it was supposed to happen that way.

But if you go into this call and you think to yourself, you know, somebody else needs this more than I do, you shut that voice off because it's lying to you.

You need this.

You deserve this.

Go do it and go get better.

So yeah, I could have done it two years ago, ended up not doing it.