Jamie Lynn Sigler

But instead I pull up a chair at the top of our patio and I just watch them.

I just show up the ways that I can.

And thankfully, they remind me all the time that they feel my presence as a mother.

And I've had to do some real soul searching and understanding that just because I have MS doesn't take away my value as a mom.

Oh, that's a good one.

I think I'm still I think I learn that every day.

But I think that's one of the beautiful parts about aging is that you really you really feel more comfortable with your voice and knowing yourself and what you want and what you don't want and what you want to spend your time and energy on and not.

You know, MS can give me an easy excuse, and I've always been very conscious to not use it as one, but there are times where I just have to take care of myself.

And I think because I've had to have firmer boundaries because of MS, they've sort of allowed me to have firmer boundaries in general in my life and get in touch with being able to advocate for myself more with that.

You know, but I just, I know what I value the most and that's my friends and my family and my work.

And so that gets all of me.

And I've also learned to sort of get rid of the guilt too, especially being a working mom of just being present where I am and knowing that when I'm with them, they'll get me fully.

He had no idea of his magic.

Or if he did, he kind of fought against it.

He just never wanted to be the special human that he was.

He just wanted to be like everybody else.

And he just wasn't.

And he lives on forever.

And it was an honor to be able to

you know, memorialize him the way I was able to in my book because he took such careful care of me, but in such a specific and kind and, you know,