Jamie Mustard

The least important people, the people that they couldn't put on real jobs, were the people that were made the, quote, nannies or caregivers.

Oh man, that's such a good question because it changed.

A lot of the people that were kind of adults when I was a kid are now aging out and they're putting them in like these kind of really cheap old folks facilities.

And that has its own set of new abuses connected to it.

But it was the crazy people from the 70s that did too much acid.

And oh, we can't have those people in this organization or around the public.

Let's put them around the kids.

So it was a brutal experience.

And what's so crazy about it was just how long it lasted.

And then I'm still standing because so many of the kids I grew up with

They have autoimmune disease, there's suicides, there's drug overdose, there's drinking yourself to death from just the stress of it.

But one of the doctrines was emotion is kind of looked down upon.

They call it HGNR, human emotion and reaction.

So if you're four years old, you trip to fall, you're bleeding, they would do some kind of thing to maybe stop the pain, like this laying of hands thing that they do.

But they would also say, stop the human emotion and reaction, knock it off.

And so emotion is not allowed.

And you're looked upon as a leper if you hurt yourself.

You're labeled a potential trouble source, PTS.

And so you get this horrible scarlet letter and stigma if you get sick or you get hurt.

So you learn as a little kid to hide being sick or hide being hurt so that you won't be punished or treated like an outcast.