Jason Helopoulos

You have promised that you would never leave me nor forsake me, but I don't feel it.

May I experience, not just know it, but can I experience it?

Would you reveal yourself to me in that way?

I will often, what I do in such moments is I will take a passage about Christ and I'll just meditate on it.

I had a mentor that used to say, what you need to do is you read the word, you memorize it, and then you meditate upon it, and then you imitate it.

So he'd say, you memorize, meditate, imitate.

Memorize, meditate, imitate.

Memorize the word so that it's so in your mind that then you can just turn it over and turn it over and turn it over in your mind.

I think of it like a piece of good chocolate.

You put it in your mouth, you're just going to suck all the goodness out of that thing before you swallow it.

You're just turning it over in your mind.

But you have to have it memorized to be able to do that.

Or it's here.

And you can just keep looking at it and every kind of facet, like it's a diamond with all of these different facets on it.

And you're just trying to get everything you can out of it.

And then you allow your life to be impacted by that.

So I'll do this.

I'll be like Jacob with the Lord.

I'm not going to let you go until my affections are stirred in some way for you.

I'm going to wrestle with you in prayer.