Javier

Before it was a conversation and, you know, and now it's a fight.

And one of us is going to walk away angry because we're not seeing eye to eye on something.

So I started really wondering who I was with.

Bottom line is, it became very confusing to me as far as how to manage our relationship.

I would even comment to her and say, you know, I don't recognize you.

I need a roadmap.

I used to love feeling her body.

Her big body next to me in bed.

The softness of her body.

You know, the extra tummy and the extra booty.

I miss that voluptuousness.

Being able to lean up next to her and feel her, for lack of a better word, draping over me.

That's no longer an option.

Now it's cuddling and it's cuddling as tight and closely as we can or as I can.

And that's the extent of the intimacy.

I'm at a loss for why there's no physical intimacy or hasn't been any.

And this new body, I haven't really been able to touch or explore or anything like that.

It's not, no.

I felt that we were always on the same page and going, you know, we're on the same page.

We weren't two ships in the night crossing paths.