Jay Mohr

And it was just, it was a direct result of my drug addiction.

It's like the old equalizers on a car stereo where you get them just right.

And when you snort Adderall, you just bang, you just blast them all up to 10 across treble, bass, fader, this.

And then when you come off them, boom, they come crashing back down.

And then you just keep jamming them back and forth, back and forth.

And it's just not an accurate, it's just not an accurate gauge of how you're actually feeling because you're either in mania or you're just completely panicked because you're going to run out of drugs.

Yeah, but I was...

One of the best things I learned in recovery was that I am the reason for all of my suffering, which thrilled me because if I'm the reason for my suffering, then I always have a solution.

I can change how I'm looking at something, or I can go be of service and help somebody else.

And then just because if I'm pissed off, it's really just a perverse...

Because if I'm pissed off, I'm only thinking about me.

So as an alcohol, an active alcoholic on Saturday Night Live, it's, you know, woe is me, pour me, pour me, pour me a drink.

So it's like, I didn't get my, I didn't get my sketch on like, oh, this fucking blues.

And that's, if I could do it again, if I, to be, I guess it's like the classic SNL lament.

Oh, if I could be 53 in that 23 year old body and just be like, okay.

I get to watch Nirvana rehearse.

I think guys like you and me had a lot of success quickly.

Like it was sort of, yeah.

Don't you think so?

I had a lot of stage fright.