Jennifer Amell

And seeing the things that she thought were important enough to write down. The things she chose to paste on the pages like a scrapbook. Mostly clippings from Rolling Stone. She was music obsessed. Pictures of Boy George and Rob Lowe in a bra and panties. Stevie Nicks, the B-52s, and many, many pictures of Rick Springfield.

And seeing the things that she thought were important enough to write down. The things she chose to paste on the pages like a scrapbook. Mostly clippings from Rolling Stone. She was music obsessed. Pictures of Boy George and Rob Lowe in a bra and panties. Stevie Nicks, the B-52s, and many, many pictures of Rick Springfield.

But the diary for 1984, for those months leading up to her death, is a black and white composition notebook. It's marked ENB Journal, English. And she wrote her name below. This diary was actually a class assignment from Heidi's English teacher, Mrs. Korber.

But the diary for 1984, for those months leading up to her death, is a black and white composition notebook. It's marked ENB Journal, English. And she wrote her name below. This diary was actually a class assignment from Heidi's English teacher, Mrs. Korber.

She addressed every entry to her teacher. Over the year, Heidi started to write every other day. And it went way beyond a school assignment. She started revealing her crushes and favorite songs, her insecurities and worries and fears. The following recreated excerpts are directly from Heidi's writing.

She addressed every entry to her teacher. Over the year, Heidi started to write every other day. And it went way beyond a school assignment. She started revealing her crushes and favorite songs, her insecurities and worries and fears. The following recreated excerpts are directly from Heidi's writing.

Her teacher, Mrs. Korber, would answer in red pen in the margins, in her neat cursive hand. The diary is a kind of dialogue between Heidi and the only adult she trusted.

Her teacher, Mrs. Korber, would answer in red pen in the margins, in her neat cursive hand. The diary is a kind of dialogue between Heidi and the only adult she trusted.

One of the last and most chilling entries is dated May 7th and 8th, 1984, just 12 days before her murder. But it's a little strange because this letter is written on loose-leaf paper, not the notebook itself. At the top left corner is written, quote, J.C. Received 5-21-84-0630. That's literally two hours before Heidi's body was found. And J.C.

One of the last and most chilling entries is dated May 7th and 8th, 1984, just 12 days before her murder. But it's a little strange because this letter is written on loose-leaf paper, not the notebook itself. At the top left corner is written, quote, J.C. Received 5-21-84-0630. That's literally two hours before Heidi's body was found. And J.C.

probably denotes Trooper Jeff Cable, who was investigating her disappearance. The police must have grabbed whatever they could from Heidi's bedroom. Here is that letter.

probably denotes Trooper Jeff Cable, who was investigating her disappearance. The police must have grabbed whatever they could from Heidi's bedroom. Here is that letter.

The letter is unsigned. But stapled to these papers is another crumpled sheet of loose leaf, which looked like it had been folded into fours and perhaps stuck in Heidi's pocket. Her notes are messy and slanted and upside down, as if she's constantly unfolding this paper and jotting down her thoughts as they occur. And I imagine these notes are what became the letter you just heard.

The letter is unsigned. But stapled to these papers is another crumpled sheet of loose leaf, which looked like it had been folded into fours and perhaps stuck in Heidi's pocket. Her notes are messy and slanted and upside down, as if she's constantly unfolding this paper and jotting down her thoughts as they occur. And I imagine these notes are what became the letter you just heard.

She goes on to write a few more. Everything I like dies. Afraid for you. Parent. Wreck. Only you. Drowning. Stream. I hope you don't mind me bothering you with this. I'm sorry I'm bothering you with this, but I feel a lot better now that I've just told someone. I don't even understand myself anymore. Have I lost all perspective? I hardly know you, but I'm telling you all. It was so scary.

She goes on to write a few more. Everything I like dies. Afraid for you. Parent. Wreck. Only you. Drowning. Stream. I hope you don't mind me bothering you with this. I'm sorry I'm bothering you with this, but I feel a lot better now that I've just told someone. I don't even understand myself anymore. Have I lost all perspective? I hardly know you, but I'm telling you all. It was so scary.

I don't know what to do. Won't mention parents. The fact that Heidi wrote that she was sitting under that covered bridge on Martinsville Road and thinking about drowning herself in the river is, gosh, it's heartbreaking and prescient. Twelve days later, Heidi would be lying dead in that same river, not too far from the bridge. Did she have a premonition of her own death?

I don't know what to do. Won't mention parents. The fact that Heidi wrote that she was sitting under that covered bridge on Martinsville Road and thinking about drowning herself in the river is, gosh, it's heartbreaking and prescient. Twelve days later, Heidi would be lying dead in that same river, not too far from the bridge. Did she have a premonition of her own death?

This is what defense attorney Dumont meant when he said suicidal idealities. Something was going on. I just don't know what Heidi did that she feels so guilty about. What happened? But what about the allegations of abuse against her father? It's possible that because Heidi felt so close to this Mrs. Korber, she disclosed what was going on at home.

This is what defense attorney Dumont meant when he said suicidal idealities. Something was going on. I just don't know what Heidi did that she feels so guilty about. What happened? But what about the allegations of abuse against her father? It's possible that because Heidi felt so close to this Mrs. Korber, she disclosed what was going on at home.