Jess

No more digging.

Did you stop digging then?

No, because I think because I just didn't believe her and I felt like there was more to it.

And I thought, well, there has to be someone that knows something.

I classed it as an incredible story, like of, wow, I was found by a lady who's a bit weird, who's a bit suspicious.

And I just kind of left it at that.

It was 2013 and it was snowing and I had to take him home in the snow and I couldn't walk.

And I remember sitting there waiting for his dad to bring the car around with no one around, just looking at him in his car seat, this tiny, tiny little bundle and thinking...

Could I leave him right now?

I convinced myself I'm as bad as her, even though I've got the baby there, I'm breastfeeding the baby.

Did she feel like this?

Did she have this disconnect right from word go?

So it dragged up these feelings that I was not expecting.

So that's when it started again for me because I banked it and I really put it away.

I really thought I'd handled it, but it dragged it up.

So she's like, oh, we need to do your DNA.

And I was like, oh, I don't want to.

I don't want to know.

One message can just explode everything.

It was too much.