Jesse James West

Oh, that was a very hard time. Honestly, for my whole family, because like me, it's me, my sister, my mom, my dad, and we're all very close. We all communicate a ton in great relationships. And for years, it was all great. But then with my dad being so, and he, cause he thought this was the best for me. He thought this is gonna make Jesse successful. He's gonna have security when he's older.

Like this, it was out of love. It was just this love that was, I guess you could say, hurtful in a way and like a little toxic. And so I go through, I'll give you the kind of like the rundown of quitting and like ripping and pulling the pin on the, on the grenade and chucking it. I call my mom, I call my sister. I believe first, I've always kind of gone to her as like, all right, what do I do?

Like this, it was out of love. It was just this love that was, I guess you could say, hurtful in a way and like a little toxic. And so I go through, I'll give you the kind of like the rundown of quitting and like ripping and pulling the pin on the, on the grenade and chucking it. I call my mom, I call my sister. I believe first, I've always kind of gone to her as like, all right, what do I do?

Like this, it was out of love. It was just this love that was, I guess you could say, hurtful in a way and like a little toxic. And so I go through, I'll give you the kind of like the rundown of quitting and like ripping and pulling the pin on the, on the grenade and chucking it. I call my mom, I call my sister. I believe first, I've always kind of gone to her as like, all right, what do I do?

Like, she's just kind of like another parent to me. And she's like, you're going to have to like, you just call mom, tell her what's going on. She'll, she'll handle dad. That was kind of always how it went. Like mom's going to handle dad. And I tell my mom and she's like, I'll talk to your father. And basically, my mom tells me the conversation went like this.

Like, she's just kind of like another parent to me. And she's like, you're going to have to like, you just call mom, tell her what's going on. She'll, she'll handle dad. That was kind of always how it went. Like mom's going to handle dad. And I tell my mom and she's like, I'll talk to your father. And basically, my mom tells me the conversation went like this.

Like, she's just kind of like another parent to me. And she's like, you're going to have to like, you just call mom, tell her what's going on. She'll, she'll handle dad. That was kind of always how it went. Like mom's going to handle dad. And I tell my mom and she's like, I'll talk to your father. And basically, my mom tells me the conversation went like this.

They came to visit me at Lehigh during an alumni game. We were playing a game. And after the game, we went to Target. Me and my mom are going in just getting like college supply stuff because you go early in sports. You don't go and everyone else starts. And I go in there and this has been I've been there for about three weeks and I'm really fucking struggling, like very, very depressed.

They came to visit me at Lehigh during an alumni game. We were playing a game. And after the game, we went to Target. Me and my mom are going in just getting like college supply stuff because you go early in sports. You don't go and everyone else starts. And I go in there and this has been I've been there for about three weeks and I'm really fucking struggling, like very, very depressed.

They came to visit me at Lehigh during an alumni game. We were playing a game. And after the game, we went to Target. Me and my mom are going in just getting like college supply stuff because you go early in sports. You don't go and everyone else starts. And I go in there and this has been I've been there for about three weeks and I'm really fucking struggling, like very, very depressed.

And I break down crying to her, just like, I can't keep it in. Like, and I'm just walking target, like about to like shot the checkout aisles to my right. And I start tearing up and I'm, and I'm like, oh my God. And I look at her and I'm like, I'm like, something's so fucking wrong.

And I break down crying to her, just like, I can't keep it in. Like, and I'm just walking target, like about to like shot the checkout aisles to my right. And I start tearing up and I'm, and I'm like, oh my God. And I look at her and I'm like, I'm like, something's so fucking wrong.

And I break down crying to her, just like, I can't keep it in. Like, and I'm just walking target, like about to like shot the checkout aisles to my right. And I start tearing up and I'm, and I'm like, oh my God. And I look at her and I'm like, I'm like, something's so fucking wrong.

like i i i feel like i can't feel anything i have no interest in like women right now and not that i was pursuing anything else but just like my emotion of who jesse was like i always wanted to go out and like talk to the girls didn't care at all none of that social media still doing it but i was just like fuck man like my desire of everything is gone like

like i i i feel like i can't feel anything i have no interest in like women right now and not that i was pursuing anything else but just like my emotion of who jesse was like i always wanted to go out and like talk to the girls didn't care at all none of that social media still doing it but i was just like fuck man like my desire of everything is gone like

like i i i feel like i can't feel anything i have no interest in like women right now and not that i was pursuing anything else but just like my emotion of who jesse was like i always wanted to go out and like talk to the girls didn't care at all none of that social media still doing it but i was just like fuck man like my desire of everything is gone like

The only thing I had that kept me sort of sane was lifting and music. And those are like two things that I like combined together. And it was my only safe space. And I remember leaving that, uh, target. My mom then dropped my mom and dad are in the car. My dad doesn't know. I just cried. I'm like, fucking suck it up. Like you're fine. Like get in the car. Like I'm, I'm the good boy.

The only thing I had that kept me sort of sane was lifting and music. And those are like two things that I like combined together. And it was my only safe space. And I remember leaving that, uh, target. My mom then dropped my mom and dad are in the car. My dad doesn't know. I just cried. I'm like, fucking suck it up. Like you're fine. Like get in the car. Like I'm, I'm the good boy.

The only thing I had that kept me sort of sane was lifting and music. And those are like two things that I like combined together. And it was my only safe space. And I remember leaving that, uh, target. My mom then dropped my mom and dad are in the car. My dad doesn't know. I just cried. I'm like, fucking suck it up. Like you're fine. Like get in the car. Like I'm, I'm the good boy.

That's fucking completing this mission of ours. And when she drops me off, she told me, tell me the conversation. She looked at my dad and was like, you're not saying a word. He's leaving. You have no say. So shout out Karen to this fucking legend. And she's like, you have to accept this. And that's how it is. Period. End of conversation. And I feel like he kind of knew for a while.