Jillian Welsh

I just remember hearing his voice first and then actually looking up from my notebook and just watching him do the scene. And he was so, so good. And he had this really awesome voice. It's like super low and really resonant. And he was really hot, too.

I just remember hearing his voice first and then actually looking up from my notebook and just watching him do the scene. And he was so, so good. And he had this really awesome voice. It's like super low and really resonant. And he was really hot, too.

I was immediately more attracted to him than I'd ever felt attracted to anybody before. And I didn't know how to talk to him. I knew that I wanted to talk to him, but I just didn't know how. There is a mix between wanting to be right next to somebody and then run away and hide.

I was immediately more attracted to him than I'd ever felt attracted to anybody before. And I didn't know how to talk to him. I knew that I wanted to talk to him, but I just didn't know how. There is a mix between wanting to be right next to somebody and then run away and hide.

And so I was standing there, and I was getting ready to hail a cab, finishing up the end of a cigarette, and I felt him come up next to me, and... Yeah, he just, it was kind of like, I remember him just like brushing back hair kind of off of my cheek. And it's that moment, you know, where you know that you're actually going to kiss. Like, you just feel it in your two bodies.

And so I was standing there, and I was getting ready to hail a cab, finishing up the end of a cigarette, and I felt him come up next to me, and... Yeah, he just, it was kind of like, I remember him just like brushing back hair kind of off of my cheek. And it's that moment, you know, where you know that you're actually going to kiss. Like, you just feel it in your two bodies.

And he just so very lightly pressed his lips up against mine. And then it was like an actual deeper kiss. And I know from the outside we made it look good because it very much felt like one of those, like a good stage kiss.

And he just so very lightly pressed his lips up against mine. And then it was like an actual deeper kiss. And I know from the outside we made it look good because it very much felt like one of those, like a good stage kiss.

I think that's probably the first time I've ever made out with anybody in the back of a cab. I think I was probably like, this cab driver is here.

I think that's probably the first time I've ever made out with anybody in the back of a cab. I think I was probably like, this cab driver is here.

So then I use his bathroom because I've been drinking a lot of beer all night and I'm so nervous. I notice that my hands are shaking in the mirror.

So then I use his bathroom because I've been drinking a lot of beer all night and I'm so nervous. I notice that my hands are shaking in the mirror.

so nervous and I just like looked myself in the eye and I actually gave myself a pep talk like pointer fingers and dancing in the mirror and being like this is everything you've waited for it's actually happening it's like excitement nervous I believe in you yeah then Jillian encounters the first obstacle in what will turn out to be a very strange night for her and my whole heart just sinks.

so nervous and I just like looked myself in the eye and I actually gave myself a pep talk like pointer fingers and dancing in the mirror and being like this is everything you've waited for it's actually happening it's like excitement nervous I believe in you yeah then Jillian encounters the first obstacle in what will turn out to be a very strange night for her and my whole heart just sinks.

I'm not actually gonna be able to have sex with him. I just got my period. I realize that like making out with him in the back of the cab and just like my cigarettes and my leather jacket, you know, it makes me seem like I was this really cool city girl, but the reality of who I am is this very nervous person who grew up very conservative, like very, very conservative

I'm not actually gonna be able to have sex with him. I just got my period. I realize that like making out with him in the back of the cab and just like my cigarettes and my leather jacket, you know, it makes me seem like I was this really cool city girl, but the reality of who I am is this very nervous person who grew up very conservative, like very, very conservative

It was something that was kind of like... Very hush-hush and not something I was used to discussing openly.

It was something that was kind of like... Very hush-hush and not something I was used to discussing openly.

So I left the bathroom and it was like I stepped out into another world, this like romantic world where he had actually taken a scarf and put it over a lamp so like the lighting was this like orange mood lighting. He didn't have a shirt on and my mind remembers him glistening. He probably wasn't actually glistening but that's how my mind remembers him.

So I left the bathroom and it was like I stepped out into another world, this like romantic world where he had actually taken a scarf and put it over a lamp so like the lighting was this like orange mood lighting. He didn't have a shirt on and my mind remembers him glistening. He probably wasn't actually glistening but that's how my mind remembers him.