Joe Hudson

Yeah.

Beautiful.

Yeah, that's exactly.

And that's, that's how it goes.

So for instance, one of the things I used to judge people for was like just those inane conversations, you know, 20 minutes of like how fast you went to the grocery store or whatever, what you bought, whatever.

And I recognized, I was like, oh, what would I have to feel?

And it was just this deep grief.

Because in my childhood, keeping it superficial was part of the way to avoid.

And so I, there's like three weeks where I would just like seek out things.

superficial conversations and I'd just be there.

I'd be the weird guy there weeping while people are like talking about like what dress they bought at like Bloomingdale's or whatever.

And because I was like, oh, there's the gold for me.

That's like, I can, I can, if I can seek that out and then I can feel that emotion.

And so that's exactly how I did it.

Every time I,

I found a judgment or I found something that I got triggered by or I was like, okay, there's something there I couldn't feel.

And then I would just reenact that over and over again until that trigger wasn't there in me anymore.

So I would like go out and find virtue signaling and then like feel into that shame.

Like I would like go to like a nice protest rally where everybody's virtue signaling and I would just sit in it.

Those are some of the things that I do.