Joe Loya

So it was like part of it was just ballsy, too.

Remember, you know, I already had stepped through fear.

On the other side of fear is where you get things done.

So you just have to walk through the fear to get the thing done.

I had to do that to stab my dad.

And sometimes your body, most of the time, almost every time, on the way to a bank robbery, as also on the way to committing crimes that I committed when I was in prison, any assaults or whatever, there's a part of your body that knows like, okay, we might die.

We might get shot.

It could be bad for me.

I'm banking that it's not, but it could be.

And so your body wants to shut down.

And in my case, on the way to the bank robbery, I would tremble.

My teeth would start grinding.

My stomach would start hurting.

My hands would like jump off the steering wheel.

I just, I couldn't, there's just so much energy in my hands.

Yeah.

And then a wave of fatigue would hit me.

Like if I pulled over, I feel like I would have been in my sleep for three hours.

It was like, it was almost like my body was saying, red line, stop, stop, stop.

Yeah, you get that.