Joe Loya

He's like, put it down, put it down.

And I'm just standing there.

Now, I've not done this before, but I have thought about it.

And I'm thinking that neck is a kill shot.

What do I know?

I've learned since then.

I've never stabbed anyone in the neck again.

But I'm thinking that's going to kill him because I need to kill him because if I don't, he'll kill me.

Back at once, I'll put a pin in that real quick.

When he told my brother, you should have died instead of your mother, something important happened.

Something clicked in me that gets me to this point.

Up until that point, I had twin traumas, my mom's death and the brutality we were experiencing.

And they were happening next to each other, but they never were connected.

When he says, you should have died instead of your mother, we're getting beat up.

And he's talking about the death of my mother.

And now they're locked.

And I think, oh, shit, he wants us to be dead, too.

He wishes my brother was dead.

That means, by extension, his children are expendable.

He wants us dead.