Joel Kim Booster

And when I did the apology, this was the only thing that was a little confusing to me. You said it was a weak move and little boy shit or something like that. And and this is what I will say about that is that like and I'll show you the text messages from executives asking me not to apologize and let it like die on its own.

So I did genuinely want to do that because I did genuinely like took the time. It was a lot going on after that all went down. And it took, trust me, like no one was more upset with me than my fiance. And that was like a really rough time. And so I regretted it pretty much immediately. But it took me like those two weeks to sort of really find the words to really like

So I did genuinely want to do that because I did genuinely like took the time. It was a lot going on after that all went down. And it took, trust me, like no one was more upset with me than my fiance. And that was like a really rough time. And so I regretted it pretty much immediately. But it took me like those two weeks to sort of really find the words to really like

So I did genuinely want to do that because I did genuinely like took the time. It was a lot going on after that all went down. And it took, trust me, like no one was more upset with me than my fiance. And that was like a really rough time. And so I regretted it pretty much immediately. But it took me like those two weeks to sort of really find the words to really like

How do I accept responsibility for this and take accountability for this without trying to like shift it in any sort of way? And, you know, maybe I wasn't super successful in that, but it was not a mandate for me to do that. And it was something that I did want to genuinely do because... And I said it like, listen, I'm not going to sit here and say that's not me because clearly it is.

How do I accept responsibility for this and take accountability for this without trying to like shift it in any sort of way? And, you know, maybe I wasn't super successful in that, but it was not a mandate for me to do that. And it was something that I did want to genuinely do because... And I said it like, listen, I'm not going to sit here and say that's not me because clearly it is.

How do I accept responsibility for this and take accountability for this without trying to like shift it in any sort of way? And, you know, maybe I wasn't super successful in that, but it was not a mandate for me to do that. And it was something that I did want to genuinely do because... And I said it like, listen, I'm not going to sit here and say that's not me because clearly it is.

That is a part of me that is...

That is a part of me that is...

That is a part of me that is...

not a part that i want to access all the time and i work very hard not to access and so that was the only thing you said because like when you were saying the other stuff to share like in shannon's presence i was like well you kind of got to play ball in that way but that was like i was like i i think i really did want it to come off like i was taking responsibility for it and so well

not a part that i want to access all the time and i work very hard not to access and so that was the only thing you said because like when you were saying the other stuff to share like in shannon's presence i was like well you kind of got to play ball in that way but that was like i was like i i think i really did want it to come off like i was taking responsibility for it and so well

not a part that i want to access all the time and i work very hard not to access and so that was the only thing you said because like when you were saying the other stuff to share like in shannon's presence i was like well you kind of got to play ball in that way but that was like i was like i i think i really did want it to come off like i was taking responsibility for it and so well

I was too harsh.

I was too harsh.

I was too harsh.

It was precipitated by real things, but the stuff that I said, I was saying shit that I didn't mean. Of course I'm not feeling for John Jansen. He's a monster. That's so clear, but I just was digging deep to say the most hurtful things I could in that moment. It just wasn't something that I'm proud of. And it's like an unfortunate little asterisk now to my entire career.

It was precipitated by real things, but the stuff that I said, I was saying shit that I didn't mean. Of course I'm not feeling for John Jansen. He's a monster. That's so clear, but I just was digging deep to say the most hurtful things I could in that moment. It just wasn't something that I'm proud of. And it's like an unfortunate little asterisk now to my entire career.

It was precipitated by real things, but the stuff that I said, I was saying shit that I didn't mean. Of course I'm not feeling for John Jansen. He's a monster. That's so clear, but I just was digging deep to say the most hurtful things I could in that moment. It just wasn't something that I'm proud of. And it's like an unfortunate little asterisk now to my entire career.

I think the first host of a reality dating show that has come after a contestant before the show has aired. And that's always going to be on my Wikipedia now. And I have to live with that. And that's a bummer for me.