Joel Kim Booster

Yeah, no, absolutely it has.

I think like it's very important for me and the strength of our relationship to maintain stability.

But it also I've had to learn like that maybe that's why I started to, you know, focus on stability.

But the stability just feels so much better outside of even the relationship too, obviously.

and that's but it's like so obvious to say but like it doesn't always feel that way when you're in it when you were saying though that you weren't dating throughout through a decade there you're basically so focused on yeah I mean I was working 50 hours a week at my day job and then you know you're working two hours a day doing open yeah yeah yeah doing open mics until 2 a.m.

you know stuck at a job 50 hours a week not necessarily doing a whole shit ton of work there but

there was one job I think that was really stressful and I was working like a full 50 hours a week my first job in New York but that was a different story than most of my other jobs but I was just like I was so focused on making it that I didn't have room for a relationship really I tried maybe a couple times but it just never panned out and I was much more interested in my career than I was in a relationship

has the success had the fulfillment in it that you've imagined i don't know what the dreams look like exactly my guess is that even has your dreams come true it doesn't look the way no yeah never it never feels um as good as you imagine it will feel um i think to arrive at that place because what by the time you arrive in a place you've already moved to the goalposts beyond that place so i think um

Yeah, it's not exactly... It certainly hasn't satiated any need in myself to continue pushing.

I still haven't... I still don't feel very successful.

I still don't feel like... And success in this industry has... The picture of it has changed so much in the last decade that it's like I don't even know what... How successful I'd have to be to be happy because I'm not.

So...

satisfied yeah combined with happy right right and so you're yeah so you're saying it never it it always feels like a hole that you are yeah i mean even like i mostly like i don't consider myself like uber successful in this moment in my career i find it i'm very i'm more often than not frustrated and feeling like a failure um right now than even i did when i was coming up as a comic

so from sunny side to scrubs doesn't like you can't step back from it no because i i work like i'm not booked busy i have like one job i have one show i'm a guest star on scrubs right now like um i'm not shooting loot right now i do it doesn't feel like my life or career is as full as a lot of my peers

uh did it when you wrote and starred in in fire island like when you're in the yeah but i mean that's the thing is like fire island felt really like fire island felt really gratifying in a lot of ways because it felt like you know being an executive producer writing that and being the star of it it felt like this is exactly what i should be doing the entire process of that from start to finish from inception to premiere that all felt like this is what i should be doing and i feel like i've turned all of that momentum into nothing

That summer I had a stand-up special come out, Luke came out, and Fire Island came out.

And then that was my peak, and it's been downhill since then.

No, totally.

And I understand that on an intellectual level, but I've been trying.

I sold my next movie the fall after Fire Island came out and I still have not been able to get it made.