John Ballen

I know exactly who that is. And they'd like mean mug me and my family at the grocery store or the gym. Because remember, this is not like a normal group of people. This is like A group of highly trained killers of like operators, people that like go to war. They're not afraid of conflict. And I have done something that in many ways is like tarnished their brand. Not their brand.

I know exactly who that is. And they'd like mean mug me and my family at the grocery store or the gym. Because remember, this is not like a normal group of people. This is like A group of highly trained killers of like operators, people that like go to war. They're not afraid of conflict. And I have done something that in many ways is like tarnished their brand. Not their brand.

That's not how they look at it. Tarnished their brotherhood. It's like I'm being selfish. And I was – they hated me. I got –

That's not how they look at it. Tarnished their brotherhood. It's like I'm being selfish. And I was – they hated me. I got –

regularly two to three messages email instagram wherever i i get i get phone calls voice messages of people leaving me just the most deep cutting personal like i this is how i know you and this is what's being said about you and this is how i feel about you it was horrible but luckily uh

regularly two to three messages email instagram wherever i i get i get phone calls voice messages of people leaving me just the most deep cutting personal like i this is how i know you and this is what's being said about you and this is how i feel about you it was horrible but luckily uh

I had already had the experience in my life, the CS gas thing, the coming home from college thing, of fairly quickly realizing that no matter how I justify this, no matter how I justify why I drifted into this arena, Ultimately, I knew what was going on. I knew the line.

I had already had the experience in my life, the CS gas thing, the coming home from college thing, of fairly quickly realizing that no matter how I justify this, no matter how I justify why I drifted into this arena, Ultimately, I knew what was going on. I knew the line.

And I knew when I crossed the line of being... No matter what the public thinks about sealed content that you see on the internet, I knew amongst the huge majority of people that will never be public about their service, the active duty guys and the retired guys, I had crossed the line for them. And I was not dumb.

And I knew when I crossed the line of being... No matter what the public thinks about sealed content that you see on the internet, I knew amongst the huge majority of people that will never be public about their service, the active duty guys and the retired guys, I had crossed the line for them. And I was not dumb.

I would have been just as upset if I was them, still active, looking at a guy like me. But instead of like... getting mad at anybody or looking for retribution or trying to justify it. I deleted it all at some point. I remember there was a night I'm like sitting on my couch and I got a message from somebody that I would have said was one of my very close friends. And it just said, you suck.

I would have been just as upset if I was them, still active, looking at a guy like me. But instead of like... getting mad at anybody or looking for retribution or trying to justify it. I deleted it all at some point. I remember there was a night I'm like sitting on my couch and I got a message from somebody that I would have said was one of my very close friends. And it just said, you suck.

That's all it said. But that sounds stupid. But this is somebody who's on team six. This is somebody who is, I specifically trained with and was like very close with like his wife and my wife were close. And like, I know what the context of this message is. It's way more than you suck. It's, we're not the same anymore. Like you're different and I look down on you. And I was like, I can't do this.

That's all it said. But that sounds stupid. But this is somebody who's on team six. This is somebody who is, I specifically trained with and was like very close with like his wife and my wife were close. And like, I know what the context of this message is. It's way more than you suck. It's, we're not the same anymore. Like you're different and I look down on you. And I was like, I can't do this.

There is no amount of success that I could possibly achieve doing the Navy SEAL content stuff that would be worth what I'm going through right now. And so instead of being like, I'm going to just act like that didn't happen, I just removed all the content, save for a couple of very small specific things. And I hadn't lost the itch for making content, but it was like,

There is no amount of success that I could possibly achieve doing the Navy SEAL content stuff that would be worth what I'm going through right now. And so instead of being like, I'm going to just act like that didn't happen, I just removed all the content, save for a couple of very small specific things. And I hadn't lost the itch for making content, but it was like,

I can't do anything with regards to being a SEAL because that's not worth it to me and I don't want to do it. I felt wrong. And after trying things that never worked like sketch comedy and like following trends at one point, I was my lowest – my lowest moment, my worst one was I – there was a trend on TikTok briefly where people would – tell, like, sort of weirdly traumatic stories.

I can't do anything with regards to being a SEAL because that's not worth it to me and I don't want to do it. I felt wrong. And after trying things that never worked like sketch comedy and like following trends at one point, I was my lowest – my lowest moment, my worst one was I – there was a trend on TikTok briefly where people would – tell, like, sort of weirdly traumatic stories.

Not traumatic, but, like, intense stories, but with autotune. They'd use the feature in TikTok that was autotune, and they'd, like, sort of sing it as autotune. But it would be, like, about the time they got, like, mugged. And so, like, the contrast is so extreme, it's sort of interesting.

Not traumatic, but, like, intense stories, but with autotune. They'd use the feature in TikTok that was autotune, and they'd, like, sort of sing it as autotune. But it would be, like, about the time they got, like, mugged. And so, like, the contrast is so extreme, it's sort of interesting.