John J. Boziak

I didn't have that. Right.

I didn't have that. Right.

I didn't have that. Right.

It was rough.

It was rough.

It was rough.

It's hard to explain. But when you're eight and you're by yourself and your mom's drunk, I used to use the word, I never even used the word drunk. I used the word obliterated. Right.

It's hard to explain. But when you're eight and you're by yourself and your mom's drunk, I used to use the word, I never even used the word drunk. I used the word obliterated. Right.

It's hard to explain. But when you're eight and you're by yourself and your mom's drunk, I used to use the word, I never even used the word drunk. I used the word obliterated. Right.

beyond drunk and you're at you're by yourself you know and um she's cutting her wrist and it's like um it's different levels because it's not like um she cuts her wrist one time and it's a problem it's she cuts her wrist multiple times and it's a problem but it goes into another layer of which I didn't recognize at the time, but I recognize it later, is you don't know when it's going to happen.

beyond drunk and you're at you're by yourself you know and um she's cutting her wrist and it's like um it's different levels because it's not like um she cuts her wrist one time and it's a problem it's she cuts her wrist multiple times and it's a problem but it goes into another layer of which I didn't recognize at the time, but I recognize it later, is you don't know when it's going to happen.

beyond drunk and you're at you're by yourself you know and um she's cutting her wrist and it's like um it's different levels because it's not like um she cuts her wrist one time and it's a problem it's she cuts her wrist multiple times and it's a problem but it goes into another layer of which I didn't recognize at the time, but I recognize it later, is you don't know when it's going to happen.

Right. And you're nine. Is mom cutting her wrist tonight? Is she not? Is she going to talk to people that aren't there? Is she not? And I'm dealing with this, and that's where it kind of got, I don't know if it was just as bad as her cutting her wrist and taking her to the hospital to get stitches, or if it was just as bad as being nine, not knowing if she was going to do it or not.

Right. And you're nine. Is mom cutting her wrist tonight? Is she not? Is she going to talk to people that aren't there? Is she not? And I'm dealing with this, and that's where it kind of got, I don't know if it was just as bad as her cutting her wrist and taking her to the hospital to get stitches, or if it was just as bad as being nine, not knowing if she was going to do it or not.

Right. And you're nine. Is mom cutting her wrist tonight? Is she not? Is she going to talk to people that aren't there? Is she not? And I'm dealing with this, and that's where it kind of got, I don't know if it was just as bad as her cutting her wrist and taking her to the hospital to get stitches, or if it was just as bad as being nine, not knowing if she was going to do it or not.

your grandmother was next door yeah right yeah i mean she know what was going on yeah they all knew my mom has a twin sister uh rest in peace jackie who's my godmother uh they all knew everybody knew you know and we go to the hospital she gets stitched up um i mean i i don't remember all the days but i remember this specifically because it just stands out in a super bowl sunday the rams are playing the pittsburgh steelers um

your grandmother was next door yeah right yeah i mean she know what was going on yeah they all knew my mom has a twin sister uh rest in peace jackie who's my godmother uh they all knew everybody knew you know and we go to the hospital she gets stitched up um i mean i i don't remember all the days but i remember this specifically because it just stands out in a super bowl sunday the rams are playing the pittsburgh steelers um

your grandmother was next door yeah right yeah i mean she know what was going on yeah they all knew my mom has a twin sister uh rest in peace jackie who's my godmother uh they all knew everybody knew you know and we go to the hospital she gets stitched up um i mean i i don't remember all the days but i remember this specifically because it just stands out in a super bowl sunday the rams are playing the pittsburgh steelers um

I'm thinking 79, somewhere in there, 80, 79, 78, somewhere in there when they play the Steelers. My mom cuts her wrist that night. So I got to go run to my cousin's house where my cousin's at, Kathy, rest in peace. She's like a sister to me. I got to run to her friend's house to tell her I got a problem. My mom's cut her wrist, you know, and my grandma probably wasn't home.

I'm thinking 79, somewhere in there, 80, 79, 78, somewhere in there when they play the Steelers. My mom cuts her wrist that night. So I got to go run to my cousin's house where my cousin's at, Kathy, rest in peace. She's like a sister to me. I got to run to her friend's house to tell her I got a problem. My mom's cut her wrist, you know, and my grandma probably wasn't home.