Jonathan Goldstein

And then kind of losing my faith and feeling – that brought on a really heavy depression.

I wanted to believe and I just couldn't figure my way into it.

And yeah, just like from a very young age, just very caught up in the big questions, I guess.

And not that that's necessarily a formula for depression.

Yeah.

But for me, I don't know, there was something very dire and desperate about it.

I remember asking my father like at a very, very young age, like where God came from.

And that feeling like a very basic question because God was a given, but like, okay, so then where does God come from?

And I remember him telling me that I should look it up.

And I had these child's encyclopedia set and looking up.

What did you look up?

God.

Yeah, like God.

And like I thought, oh, well, I'm going to get to the bottom of this in two seconds.

Right.

And it wasn't – I remember like looking at the Bible and thinking like, oh, it must be before Genesis.

Like before – but, you know, there's like no preface.

There's no – Right.

It just starts with the big bang and that's it.

Uh-huh.