Jonathan Malesic

Burnout kind of comes from a place of just like numbness or not feeling and lack of motivation.

Tense pain, angst in my chest that then just spreads slowly across to my shoulders.

I'm stuck in this hard place of I don't want to give up this job, but I don't really enjoy it anymore.

From about age 20 or so, I wanted to be a college religion or theology professor.

And I got it.

I got exactly my dream.

So about eight or nine years into the career, I found it harder and harder to get out of bed in the morning.

I started having weird, inexplicable pains in my torso in particular.

I was constantly exhausted.

I dreaded going to work.

Everyone at the college had to take theology.

Very few wanted to.

So my class was, you know, somewhat resented by the students.

The college itself was under a lot of stress.

There was a budget crisis along the way.

People were let go.

There was just a lot of worry at the college.

jonathan wasn't himself i had a very short temper uh i would find myself blowing up in meetings over very minor things um i yeah i was constantly frustrated i felt sort of useless i would find myself lying in bed in the mornings for hours like watching over and over the video for peter gabriel's song don't give up

I also love Kate Bush and that song's a duet.

You still have friends, you know.