Jonathan Roumie

When I came to the conclusion in that moment that we talked about, that moment of surrender, I came to the conclusion that for the previous eight years up to that point, I think that God had an idea or a plan for me, and then it's like He said, okay, this is, I've given you these gifts, I've given you these talents, do something with them.

And I'm kind of like, oh, okay, let me go do something with them. And sort of leaving him out of the discernment process when it came to certain steps to take to move forward. And so I did that for years and years and years, and I think as a person of faith, you necessarily cannot keep God separate from any part of your life, especially in areas where you're struggling.

And I'm kind of like, oh, okay, let me go do something with them. And sort of leaving him out of the discernment process when it came to certain steps to take to move forward. And so I did that for years and years and years, and I think as a person of faith, you necessarily cannot keep God separate from any part of your life, especially in areas where you're struggling.

And for me, it was in a moment of severe stress and anxiety and borderline fiscal destitution that I basically said, I can't do it on my own. I recognize I've been trying to do everything that I thought I was supposed to do. but it hasn't worked.

And for me, it was in a moment of severe stress and anxiety and borderline fiscal destitution that I basically said, I can't do it on my own. I recognize I've been trying to do everything that I thought I was supposed to do. but it hasn't worked.

And what I realized is that I've never checked in and thought whether or not this particular action was the right move or that was what God might want from my life. So now it was essentially a prayer where I say, I want whatever you want from me because you know better than I do what's good for me. Whatever that is, show me what it is.

And what I realized is that I've never checked in and thought whether or not this particular action was the right move or that was what God might want from my life. So now it was essentially a prayer where I say, I want whatever you want from me because you know better than I do what's good for me. Whatever that is, show me what it is.

Constantly. God willing, I'm on the path. But that's part of the mystery of faith. God ultimately is unknowable.

Constantly. God willing, I'm on the path. But that's part of the mystery of faith. God ultimately is unknowable.

Where are you being tested? You know, they asked St. Paul about that and he never really quite answered directly. He had a prayer. He's like, Lord, take this thorn from my side. Three times he said, I asked the Lord to take this thorn from my side. And that God said, no, I'm not going to take that from you because my grace is sufficient. In other words, he needed Paul personally

Where are you being tested? You know, they asked St. Paul about that and he never really quite answered directly. He had a prayer. He's like, Lord, take this thorn from my side. Three times he said, I asked the Lord to take this thorn from my side. And that God said, no, I'm not going to take that from you because my grace is sufficient. In other words, he needed Paul personally

to have this thing, this weakness, whatever it was, so that Paul would always depend on God for everything that he got. And I feel similarly with my own sort of things. I'm not comparing myself to Paul in any aspect whatsoever, but we all deal with something, right? We're all suffering and struggling with something.

to have this thing, this weakness, whatever it was, so that Paul would always depend on God for everything that he got. And I feel similarly with my own sort of things. I'm not comparing myself to Paul in any aspect whatsoever, but we all deal with something, right? We're all suffering and struggling with something.

I'm a woefully flawed human being, but I'm trying to do the best that I can with the gifts that I've been given. And by me even just walking my, you know, the walk of faith publicly, it's not something that I ever intended to do. It's something that, you know, during the pandemic, I literally felt pushed to do. And I started doing it. I started praying live on my social media accounts.

I'm a woefully flawed human being, but I'm trying to do the best that I can with the gifts that I've been given. And by me even just walking my, you know, the walk of faith publicly, it's not something that I ever intended to do. It's something that, you know, during the pandemic, I literally felt pushed to do. And I started doing it. I started praying live on my social media accounts.

And I thought, what am I doing? This is career killer. Because it was like... It would, first of all, out me, you know, as a Christian. And then, in many cases, even more stringently, out me as a Catholic Christian, which people find even harder to take. You know, there's like a billion Catholics in the world. There are. But, you know, I don't know that they're all here in America.

And I thought, what am I doing? This is career killer. Because it was like... It would, first of all, out me, you know, as a Christian. And then, in many cases, even more stringently, out me as a Catholic Christian, which people find even harder to take. You know, there's like a billion Catholics in the world. There are. But, you know, I don't know that they're all here in America.

And most of my audience... The current president is Catholic.

And most of my audience... The current president is Catholic.

But it just wasn't something I'd ever thought to do or wanted to do or felt that I should do. I'd always kept it separate. And then I just felt this, you know, this thought, this, you know, inclination, like you should do this because people are struggling really bad right now. And it's going to bring peace to a lot of people.