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Despite the media coverage over the past 35 years, there is surprisingly very little information available talking about the victims' lives before this very tragic day.

Though the families of the victims and the survivors are forced to deal with the memories of that day, it seems many in the community at large have forgotten the events or have tried to just straight up forget them.

Ida Holguin is one of the lone survivors.

She was 33 at the time of the shooting, and as you might expect, left her position as a cook immediately after this day.

She does not speak about the events from that day, repeatedly turning down offers to appear in memorial events as well as videos.

The only thing we really know is that she has expressed that the pain of that day still haunts her and she suffers from severe anxiety and panic attacks even 30 years later.

Ida's husband, Raymond, said it took six months for Ida to be released from the hospital.

Ida suffered from panic and anxiety attacks, headaches, and PTSD.

Her brain injuries made it difficult for her to do everyday things, and she had to relearn everything.

Each year, on the anniversary of the event, Ida travels to Albuquerque, which is three hours away from Las Cruces, to get distance between her and the place where her life was changed forever.

However, Ida's life has seen some positivity as she became a grandmother and told Raymond that her grandkids finally showed her why God allowed her to live.

Steve Tehran, the mechanic who lost his life and both of his daughters during the massacre, was 36 years old and preparing to begin a new chapter in his life as a father to three children.

Steve's brother Anthony was fresh out of high school when his brother was killed, and he often looks back at photos of Steve in the military where he learned his mechanic skills and remembers what his brother always tried to teach him, to always do the right thing.

And that's part of the inspiration behind Anthony still showing up to speak about his brother and nieces every year on the anniversary of their murder, even 35 years later.

Steve's widow, Audra, was also permanently scarred that day by the loss of the love of her life and her two beautiful children.

Audra remembers him as a hardworking man who always put his family first.

Those who knew Steve said that he was loyal to a fault, which is why he even went to work on that February morning, despite not being able to find a babysitter for his daughters Paula and Valerie.

Audra described Paula Holguin, the boisterous six-year-old, as a girly girl with a bubbly personality, whose favorite color was fuchsia.

Paula also was a wonderful big sister to two-year-old Valerie, the youngest victim.

Valerie may have been small, but she was already coming into her personality.