Joshua Broome

I would do stuff like that sometimes. And it was almost like, you know, it's kind of what we're talking about. Like, how do you ever get to, you know, this place? Like, how do you go from here to here?

Like, how do you go from, you know, me personally, the first magazine that I ever saw that, like, created a sexual thought in my head, it was, like, it was, I think it was, like, Matt, no, like, GQ, like, or the... I don't know, like a swimsuit version of Maxim or something like that. But it was just like a see-through bathing suit. How did I go from there to watching hardcore porn?

Like, how do you go from, you know, me personally, the first magazine that I ever saw that, like, created a sexual thought in my head, it was, like, it was, I think it was, like, Matt, no, like, GQ, like, or the... I don't know, like a swimsuit version of Maxim or something like that. But it was just like a see-through bathing suit. How did I go from there to watching hardcore porn?

Like, how do you go from, you know, me personally, the first magazine that I ever saw that, like, created a sexual thought in my head, it was, like, it was, I think it was, like, Matt, no, like, GQ, like, or the... I don't know, like a swimsuit version of Maxim or something like that. But it was just like a see-through bathing suit. How did I go from there to watching hardcore porn?

So doing porn, getting paid for sex. They're doing these bartending stuff. And then there was a high-profile company in the fashion industry that would have these parties. And they would bring out guys and girls to do these parties. And the girls would walk around naked. Guys would walk around in boxers, whatever, serve everyone drinks. I went there. It was in Paris.

So doing porn, getting paid for sex. They're doing these bartending stuff. And then there was a high-profile company in the fashion industry that would have these parties. And they would bring out guys and girls to do these parties. And the girls would walk around naked. Guys would walk around in boxers, whatever, serve everyone drinks. I went there. It was in Paris.

So doing porn, getting paid for sex. They're doing these bartending stuff. And then there was a high-profile company in the fashion industry that would have these parties. And they would bring out guys and girls to do these parties. And the girls would walk around naked. Guys would walk around in boxers, whatever, serve everyone drinks. I went there. It was in Paris.

Long story short, I went there and got drugged and raped by the owner of a very well-known fashion, what used to be the CEO of a very well-known fashion organization. And when that happened to me, I thought, it's my fault. This is what I signed up for. You know, this is who I am. And... Then I started trying to sabotage. I was towards the end of my career, so I started trying to sabotage myself.

Long story short, I went there and got drugged and raped by the owner of a very well-known fashion, what used to be the CEO of a very well-known fashion organization. And when that happened to me, I thought, it's my fault. This is what I signed up for. You know, this is who I am. And... Then I started trying to sabotage. I was towards the end of my career, so I started trying to sabotage myself.

Long story short, I went there and got drugged and raped by the owner of a very well-known fashion, what used to be the CEO of a very well-known fashion organization. And when that happened to me, I thought, it's my fault. This is what I signed up for. You know, this is who I am. And... Then I started trying to sabotage. I was towards the end of my career, so I started trying to sabotage myself.

started making a pretty clear plan to take my life. And I kind of looked up, like, I had this pretty strong pain medication. You know, like, how many pills would do the trick? Okay, well, take that number, maybe add two more. And I put them on the counter. And I'd separate them. It's like I took old school vitamins. I used to take the VitaPak, like an animal pack or whatever.

started making a pretty clear plan to take my life. And I kind of looked up, like, I had this pretty strong pain medication. You know, like, how many pills would do the trick? Okay, well, take that number, maybe add two more. And I put them on the counter. And I'd separate them. It's like I took old school vitamins. I used to take the VitaPak, like an animal pack or whatever.

started making a pretty clear plan to take my life. And I kind of looked up, like, I had this pretty strong pain medication. You know, like, how many pills would do the trick? Okay, well, take that number, maybe add two more. And I put them on the counter. And I'd separate them. It's like I took old school vitamins. I used to take the VitaPak, like an animal pack or whatever.

I'd take like 40 vitamins at once. So I'm like, I knew I could take a lot of pills at once. So I separated them so I could make sure I'd get them down, swallow them, wouldn't chicken out. And I set them up like that. Time after time after time, I just could never do it. And then this one day, I was filming in Atlanta, and it was a disgusting shoot.

I'd take like 40 vitamins at once. So I'm like, I knew I could take a lot of pills at once. So I separated them so I could make sure I'd get them down, swallow them, wouldn't chicken out. And I set them up like that. Time after time after time, I just could never do it. And then this one day, I was filming in Atlanta, and it was a disgusting shoot.

I'd take like 40 vitamins at once. So I'm like, I knew I could take a lot of pills at once. So I separated them so I could make sure I'd get them down, swallow them, wouldn't chicken out. And I set them up like that. Time after time after time, I just could never do it. And then this one day, I was filming in Atlanta, and it was a disgusting shoot.

People were urinating on each other, spitting on my face, in my mouth, stuff like that. And I'm just like... What have I become? I was like, I want to die. Can't undo what I've done. Got more money than I thought I would ever see. Growing up, food stamps, trailer, government housing. Got a nice Breitling collection and nice home. Do all the stuff. But I'm miserable.

People were urinating on each other, spitting on my face, in my mouth, stuff like that. And I'm just like... What have I become? I was like, I want to die. Can't undo what I've done. Got more money than I thought I would ever see. Growing up, food stamps, trailer, government housing. Got a nice Breitling collection and nice home. Do all the stuff. But I'm miserable.

People were urinating on each other, spitting on my face, in my mouth, stuff like that. And I'm just like... What have I become? I was like, I want to die. Can't undo what I've done. Got more money than I thought I would ever see. Growing up, food stamps, trailer, government housing. Got a nice Breitling collection and nice home. Do all the stuff. But I'm miserable.

And this is what I've made of my life. There's no hope. There's no hope. There's no way out. But I needed someone to agree with me. So I got paid from that scene, and the directors, on the memo of the checks, they would always write something grotesque.