Joshua Citarella

So a lot of these things seem to be like aesthetic movements first.

Mm-hmm.

As opposed to sort of some underlying ethical or political movement.

Yeah.

Yeah, it's strange to be in your 30s and to feel like your sort of better self is slipping through your fingers.

It's so... All of the...

cliches about health are so trite.

The fucking well man wants a thousand things, the sick man only wants one.

But it is so front and center of your experience that if you are dealing with something, especially something that affects your energy or your cognition or your mood, like it's the window through which you experience the world.

So it's like looking at the world through a dirty window.

And it's fucking kicked me in the nuts.

It's given me a huge appreciation for good days.

It's made me an awful lot more empathetic to people.

Anybody that's in good health most of the time

It takes a degree of sort of self-righteous, self-development glow from their own health as if they authored it themselves.

Sure.

Which in many ways you do.

You have an awful lot of impact over that.

But then there's other stuff that comes along like, I didn't choose to get fucking Lyme disease, dude.

Neither did you.