Judd Apatow

Like, no, you were pretty bad.

Like when I was putting the comedy nerd book together, I was writing about things that worked, things that failed, and why.

And I could see my intensity as I...

collected all the photos and wrote all the essays.

Like, well, you were a maniac.

And I would think about some fight I had with an executive where I just, you know, really went too hard

but it was all, you know, in service of, you know, what does it mean if this is really bad?

Well, so maybe I won't work again or I'll get worse jobs or people will find out I don't know what I'm doing.

You know, how can I be solid?

In a career that's not solid at all because every comedy is an experiment.

So it's not like one working helps the next one ever.

So as soon as you start one, you're like,

I think it'll be funny.

And sometimes it is.

And sometimes it's not.

And you go, oh, I was wrong.

There's no way.

It's not like a consistent job.

It's not like a dentist where you're just a good dentist and you're just making good decisions.

It's a roll of the dice of if people will like what you did and if it'll make any sense to anybody.