Justin Scott

What it means to be wanted is huge.

What it means to be actually trusting yourself in a situation is big.

But I always think of selfhood most of the time.

I'll see people talk about relationship dynamics.

like politics all that stuff but do we have enough selfhood that if we dropped all the effects you'd still be here right and a lot of folks don't get to have selfhood and like you know and I was lucky to but I see it online a lot of the time where we call people performative we call people this but over time the person is replaced by the adjective right like and that's stuff I'm trying to get past because a lot of times people exist in an adjective right like they exist like erased traumatized lonely but rarely do you ever just get to live by your own name

And I see people, a lot of people, who cannot live by their own name.

I'm just here.

I am.

You know what I'm saying?

That junk is hard.

And like, for me, I get where you're coming from with isolation because I dealt with a lot of invisibility growing up.

See, like now, now I have good parents, right?

And this is, this is hard for them to understand, but good parents can produce structural neglect all the time.

That don't mean they knew how to hold me all the time.

They didn't know how to make it through every emotion.

But they sure was good though.

But it's just one of those types of things where in that type of invisibility, you got to be able to see yourself in places that other people not going to see you in.

It's real hard.

A lot of people not willing to stand in the mirror like that.

They willing for the mirror to speak to them, right?