Kail Lowry

And it's like, I can't tell my kids anything that would

Hindsight is always 20, 20.

I think sometimes I like, I think I'm still stuck in like childhood kale where like, I don't even to this day right now, as I'm sitting here, I don't know if we're going to be okay.

And like, I know that's like trauma inflicted and like everything that I've been through and like not to be dramatic, but like anything can be taken.

I live as if anything can be taken.

Everything can be taken from me at any point.

And so

I don't know that I'll ever fully believe that.

And so because of that, I don't think that I can give advice to younger Kale.

It's just like.

Yeah.

That's really weird.

And it's so interesting to me when I like meet people that have no trauma.

I'm like, you're like so cool and fun and like just like living life.

And I'm just like, how do you get here?

And then I see people like Bobby, who's like,

you know he means what he said like that he forgave those people and he wouldn't be where he is if it wasn't for all of that and like sometimes i'm there sometimes i'm like you know thank you to all my family that didn't take me in because it built it created a resilience in me and like this like hustler mentality but also i struggle with being the provider like i am more the dad than i am the mom yes i am nurturing but i'm not as nurturing as i could be if i wasn't the provider and i think that's really hard for me because it's like

And I think that also is a struggle for me in my like relationships, like my romantic relationships, because I am usually always the provider.

So it's just like, doesn't give me a chance to like,

I don't know.