Katriona O'Sullivan

I could see the kids there as well, our beautiful family.

So I did, and I love being married.

I just didn't like being looked at and my body being judged.

And the idea that I wasn't small enough was very, very, very prevalent on that day.

So I actually don't even know if I actively made the decision, Brendan.

I'm living in a world where I have got myself a lectureship in a university.

I've married this great man with three great kids.

Our life is doing well.

But the stuff around my body and the way I was with food and the stuff around, like, I never spoke about sexual abuse in any of the therapy I'd been in.

I'd always kept that to myself, Brendan.

And the food stuff was like, I thought everyone just had to live with that.

Like, that's just what we carry.

But I went through this period of being like, I don't know what happened.

You know, it's a self-hate moment, which I had loads of them.

And I'd met a girl who told me she'd had gastric sleeve.

I met her in a coffee shop and she looked so skinny.

And she told me she was so happy.

She was in the afterworld, Brendan.

She was at the destination.

And I thought, I'm going to do that.