Kelly

I mean, it's like you're just trapped in a room with a crying kid.

You can't stop crying or anything.

You don't know how to just make it stop.

It's like no way to escape it.

Yeah, I'm sorry.

I would isolate myself and everything.

I've grown so distant from my friends because with the lack of sleep, you're just not in any other mood for anybody, and you can't show up like you used to for any of the things that you've done.

I found this YouTuber who makes these like white noises or he calls them pink noise, brown noises.

There's so many different ones.

I've been doing a lot better, I would say, honestly.

Like,

I've been happy, I guess.

I've just been trying to be more open about it because I realized that I never shared it to anyone at my job.

Now I'm just like trying to just put myself out there again.

It just closes you in this insane box, you know, you have nowhere to go and you just somehow find a way to chisel through it.

Chiseling, yeah.

Still making my way out.

That's... I feel like that just feels like a better explanation because I've always had a hard time describing it, but...

It kind of makes me feel a little at ease again where I'm like, OK, maybe it's still not entirely like me, me, like, you know.

I'm actually just spending days in my apartment only just without my hearing aids and just trying to take in all the sounds.