Kelly

And I even remember like walking through the halls and I would like see Brian and I would wait to him and

he would just give me a head nod like that because like he didn't really want to know he didn't want people to associate me with him yeah because i was like a nerd and he was mr cool right so of course that's like classic brother and sister yeah so quick question what age would you say that you were when you started feeling the anxiety coming on

I actually can't remember a time without anxiety.

I just started noticing it when I was about 13.

But if I look back on it, there was like never a time without anxiety.

yeah that is such a good question because i think of that all the time i'm not 100 sure but i think it's genetics too i think that my family is full of mental health issues illnesses some that are just not spoken about some that haven't come to light but i know from even my dad he's an introvert and i think seeing him

being an introvert, I think that also played a part in why I didn't really want to talk to people too.

But I've never really known a time without like feeling I was on the edge, feeling I was like suffocating.

So I remember things like even breathing, like I can actually feel that now because I'm, the anxiety doesn't go away.

Like I still have

a hard time breathing.

I just know how to better handle it now.

Yes, exactly.

But back then, I would have difficulty breathing.

I would get stomach aches.

I would feel like I'm going to throw up a lot.

I just kind of like hid from the world because I had all these feelings.

And then if I brought them up to my dad or my mom or my dad, he would call me like a hypochondriac.

I remember distinctly we were at an Applebee's and we were eating and out of nowhere, I just felt like I was suffocating and couldn't breathe.

And I told my dad that I can't breathe and he called me a hypochondriac.