Kelly

So one of the days, at one point, my best friend came into town.

She lives in North Carolina, and she wanted to hang out and say hi to us.

I'm actually going back to when we worked at the Christmas tree because I just thought of this.

But she asked to hang out, and I told her, oh, no, I'm going to sleep or something.

Like, I'm not feeling good.

And then...

She ended up going to the Christmas tree where my mom was working and she told my mom like, oh, I hope Kelly's feeling better.

And my mom was like, oh, Kelly's fine.

She's not, she's at home.

She's not sick.

And so my best friend was like,

oh like that's like because i don't i don't lie because i'm really bad at it but that's like the one time i did and of course i got caught like right away and so she it caused a fight between her i want to say fight like an argument between her and i and i didn't realize at that point

i was like the most depressed i was and i just didn't want to do anything or see anybody or talk to anybody because i didn't want any questions being asked i didn't want to have to let it all out so i just avoided people and including her and now i see that i could have just told her like what was going on and she would have been 100 on board with it and supportive

But it's like, it's really weird too.

And being younger, I just didn't think I should put that burden on anybody else.

Like what I was going through and didn't want people to feel bad for me.

But also with the stigma around it, I just, I didn't think it was good to talk about.

I thought it was just something too personal, something that should stay in the family.

But now I see it completely different where it's,

something that should be talked about and more people should have awareness of mental illness because it's so prevalent and people are dealing with it everywhere i just happen to be the one in my in my little bubble i guess you could say that is going through it like my friends