Khloé Kardashian

I found his mom passed away when he was 12, I believe. I found stuff of his mother's. They were all in my attic, jewelry, all this stuff. And I held onto it and I said, I'm never gonna give this to somebody else unless it's Lamar. I'm gonna hold onto these things because now I don't trust his people around him. And when Malika reached out, when Malika told me she saw him, I said, that's so weird.

I found his mom passed away when he was 12, I believe. I found stuff of his mother's. They were all in my attic, jewelry, all this stuff. And I held onto it and I said, I'm never gonna give this to somebody else unless it's Lamar. I'm gonna hold onto these things because now I don't trust his people around him. And when Malika reached out, when Malika told me she saw him, I said, that's so weird.

I just found his mom's driver's license last week. And I was like, okay. She's like, why don't you give it to him? I was like, let me think this over. And it took a few months for me to... want her to reach out to say like, do you want to meet up with me? Cause I wanted to do it. I didn't want to just drop it off. I didn't. I wanted to see him and make sure still that he was doing okay.

I just found his mom's driver's license last week. And I was like, okay. She's like, why don't you give it to him? I was like, let me think this over. And it took a few months for me to... want her to reach out to say like, do you want to meet up with me? Cause I wanted to do it. I didn't want to just drop it off. I didn't. I wanted to see him and make sure still that he was doing okay.

And at the time I didn't have any feelings. I was like, yeah, let's hang. Let's come over. Let's go to Malika's house. I didn't want to do it in public where it would be a big spectacle. I didn't want to do it at my house because my kids there and he knew about the cameras and He picked the time of the date. I never would have ambushed somebody about that. And he picked the time of the date.

And at the time I didn't have any feelings. I was like, yeah, let's hang. Let's come over. Let's go to Malika's house. I didn't want to do it in public where it would be a big spectacle. I didn't want to do it at my house because my kids there and he knew about the cameras and He picked the time of the date. I never would have ambushed somebody about that. And he picked the time of the date.

He flew in for it. And it's so weird when I thought I was totally cool. And when he came in, he was so nervous. And I was trying to reassure him, like, we're fine and whatever. And there would be times in our conversation that I started getting these feelings.

He flew in for it. And it's so weird when I thought I was totally cool. And when he came in, he was so nervous. And I was trying to reassure him, like, we're fine and whatever. And there would be times in our conversation that I started getting these feelings.

I don't know if they're triggers or... Because we've both experienced a lot of trauma together, Lamar and I. And there would be either little mannerisms or things that would flash me back to... 10, 15 years ago. And I didn't realize how triggered I was getting from Lamar.

I don't know if they're triggers or... Because we've both experienced a lot of trauma together, Lamar and I. And there would be either little mannerisms or things that would flash me back to... 10, 15 years ago. And I didn't realize how triggered I was getting from Lamar.

Well, I could only say this because I would never tell somebody else's story. But I'm saying this because he said it on the episode. We didn't talk for 10 years because after his overdose, Lamar couldn't walk or talk. And he had a significant amount of seizures and strokes and needed to be rehabilitated. And I helped him through that journey.

Well, I could only say this because I would never tell somebody else's story. But I'm saying this because he said it on the episode. We didn't talk for 10 years because after his overdose, Lamar couldn't walk or talk. And he had a significant amount of seizures and strokes and needed to be rehabilitated. And I helped him through that journey.

And then when he was at a decent place, he started using again. And he said that on the show. That's why I'm saying it now. And from that moment was when I was paying for a house for him to be in. I was taking care of him. And I said, I can never see you again. Not that it was anything ever romantic. From my... I love Lamar with all my heart. Even today, I love, love, love him.

And then when he was at a decent place, he started using again. And he said that on the show. That's why I'm saying it now. And from that moment was when I was paying for a house for him to be in. I was taking care of him. And I said, I can never see you again. Not that it was anything ever romantic. From my... I love Lamar with all my heart. Even today, I love, love, love him.

And I know he was like one of the greatest loves of my life. It just other circumstances took over. But so I really sincerely wanted the best for him. When he started using again after such a horrific accident where he, in my opinion, is a miracle that he is alive today. I couldn't understand how someone would go and do that again.

And I know he was like one of the greatest loves of my life. It just other circumstances took over. But so I really sincerely wanted the best for him. When he started using again after such a horrific accident where he, in my opinion, is a miracle that he is alive today. I couldn't understand how someone would go and do that again.

And I get it's a disease, but it felt like you punched me in my stomach. And I put so much of my life on hold to take care of this person just for them to be like, that's fine. Like, I'm not sure how he felt about himself. It made me feel that he had no respect for his own life and for anything that I did for him as well.

And I get it's a disease, but it felt like you punched me in my stomach. And I put so much of my life on hold to take care of this person just for them to be like, that's fine. Like, I'm not sure how he felt about himself. It made me feel that he had no respect for his own life and for anything that I did for him as well.

And so from that moment on, I said, no, I'm not speaking to this person anymore because it does nothing for me. There's no benefit in this. I felt more like I would be taking care of him, but being lied to. I had so many negative thoughts. So that 10-year break, as sad as it was, it wasn't that hard for me anymore. Because I, it was, but it was sad.

And so from that moment on, I said, no, I'm not speaking to this person anymore because it does nothing for me. There's no benefit in this. I felt more like I would be taking care of him, but being lied to. I had so many negative thoughts. So that 10-year break, as sad as it was, it wasn't that hard for me anymore. Because I, it was, but it was sad.