Kira

I think the hardest part is that he, like, looked at me and told me that I was wrong about myself and that he was right. And I don't understand how he could know that.

I think the hardest part is that he, like, looked at me and told me that I was wrong about myself and that he was right. And I don't understand how he could know that.

So, like, let's say these things don't come true and he's willing to say, like, I was wrong about these things. I don't feel like that would affect his beliefs around me. Like, even if he's right about everything else, I'm probably still going to be gay after that.

So, like, let's say these things don't come true and he's willing to say, like, I was wrong about these things. I don't feel like that would affect his beliefs around me. Like, even if he's right about everything else, I'm probably still going to be gay after that.

Because I don't want to be there. I feel like I'm going to cry. I think last year was so terrible. incredibly terrible for me and the thought of being back in that space feels awful why would i choose that i'm not gonna get okay with him believing that i'm somebody that i'm not and and wanting so badly for me to be something else.

Because I don't want to be there. I feel like I'm going to cry. I think last year was so terrible. incredibly terrible for me and the thought of being back in that space feels awful why would i choose that i'm not gonna get okay with him believing that i'm somebody that i'm not and and wanting so badly for me to be something else.

And it's hard because I say that and then I immediately think, well, that's what I want from him. I want him to fundamentally change who he is and be a different person. That's where I feel stuck. It's like when you when we both we want the same things from each other. And I don't know if that's possible.

And it's hard because I say that and then I immediately think, well, that's what I want from him. I want him to fundamentally change who he is and be a different person. That's where I feel stuck. It's like when you when we both we want the same things from each other. And I don't know if that's possible.

Because I don't want to be there. I feel like I'm going to cry.

Because I don't want to be there. I feel like I'm going to cry.

I think last year was so terrible, incredibly terrible for me. And the thought of being back in that space feels awful. Why would I choose that?

I think last year was so terrible, incredibly terrible for me. And the thought of being back in that space feels awful. Why would I choose that?

I think for things to change. Like, it's not like things are better. than where they were almost a year ago. It's just like enough time has passed that I don't feel like shit every day, but it's not like much has changed. You know, I'm learning to deal with it.

I think for things to change. Like, it's not like things are better. than where they were almost a year ago. It's just like enough time has passed that I don't feel like shit every day, but it's not like much has changed. You know, I'm learning to deal with it.

No, because I feel like there are parts of me that want... To continue to have a lot of space and not really have a relationship, but I'm also not in a place where I'm not ready to do that either. And so that's hard. Like, I don't want to not have a relationship with him. But do you want to feel a little bit shitty every day for the rest of your life?

No, because I feel like there are parts of me that want... To continue to have a lot of space and not really have a relationship, but I'm also not in a place where I'm not ready to do that either. And so that's hard. Like, I don't want to not have a relationship with him. But do you want to feel a little bit shitty every day for the rest of your life?

Or do you want to feel like one big, terrible, gaping wound and then allow that to heal and then keep living? But a lot of people choose the, like, tiny paper cuts every day.

Or do you want to feel like one big, terrible, gaping wound and then allow that to heal and then keep living? But a lot of people choose the, like, tiny paper cuts every day.

Yeah. And I'm just not interested in the tiny paper cuts every day.

Yeah. And I'm just not interested in the tiny paper cuts every day.