Kit Bennett

One of the things that you often think about in this is, you know, they always say everybody has their price.

And, you know, I often used to think about what is my price?

What is it that would make me turn?

But I was always conscious of the fact that they were the other side, that they were the baddies and that we were the goodies.

I think it was much more difficult than I realised.

I don't think I realised how... I don't think I... Because for me, it was my normal.

And that reintegration didn't go well.

I don't think it was my fault and I don't think it was their fault.

I just think it was that no one understood.

There were no psychologists, no one spoke to me.

So, you know, I didn't know why I was, why I didn't want to do it.

I don't know why I was bitter about coming back to the service.

But it was just so hard.

And while I disliked the director, you know, I don't think he understood either.

So none of us understood.

And I became difficult and intractable, and my marriage was collapsing, and it was a disaster.

I think that affected me a bit when I suddenly realised I was playing with the grown-ups.

And there were one, possibly two other incidents that I really don't much want to talk to.

I don't think it'll add anything.

But they certainly were a bit traumatic.