KT Smith

A year of going, maybe it was, I don't know it. I was around so often that felt like five years that I was there, but, um, After some time passed, the youth pastor that I looked at as a father figure sexually abused me. And that was a lot to go through because that happened for about a year.

A year of going, maybe it was, I don't know it. I was around so often that felt like five years that I was there, but, um, After some time passed, the youth pastor that I looked at as a father figure sexually abused me. And that was a lot to go through because that happened for about a year.

And when I had told one of my other best friends, not the one that lived with them, after a little bit, she ended up telling her school counselor that And then like DCS got involved and it was just like a whole crap show that had happened.

And when I had told one of my other best friends, not the one that lived with them, after a little bit, she ended up telling her school counselor that And then like DCS got involved and it was just like a whole crap show that had happened.

I'm so sorry that happened. It's okay. It was definitely a lot. So I became homeschooled for a year because I loved that church. It was like my family.

I'm so sorry that happened. It's okay. It was definitely a lot. So I became homeschooled for a year because I loved that church. It was like my family.

That and then they blamed it on me. No. Yeah. They were like, you're a homewrecker, all this stuff. When I was literally 13, I didn't like know what was going on. So I couldn't go back to that church. Of course you got fired, but it was still like, I'm being looked at the way I am. So that's why I was homeschooled is because it was just like this huge thing around it.

That and then they blamed it on me. No. Yeah. They were like, you're a homewrecker, all this stuff. When I was literally 13, I didn't like know what was going on. So I couldn't go back to that church. Of course you got fired, but it was still like, I'm being looked at the way I am. So that's why I was homeschooled is because it was just like this huge thing around it.

it was definitely hard to walk through, but like in that, cause like, I also say like, I'm not religious, but I have a relationship with the Lord because Christians have such a cloud of hypocrisy like around them. And I don't want to meet someone and then think that I'm automatically like that.

it was definitely hard to walk through, but like in that, cause like, I also say like, I'm not religious, but I have a relationship with the Lord because Christians have such a cloud of hypocrisy like around them. And I don't want to meet someone and then think that I'm automatically like that.

Because there's just so many instances where I'm like, yes, certain things are in the Bible, but I'm not going to judge you for what you do. Like, I don't care what you do as long as you're not hurting other people. It's not my place to judge. Um, And if all sins are counted equally, then I'm like. we're all weighing against each other here and there's no reason to.

Because there's just so many instances where I'm like, yes, certain things are in the Bible, but I'm not going to judge you for what you do. Like, I don't care what you do as long as you're not hurting other people. It's not my place to judge. Um, And if all sins are counted equally, then I'm like. we're all weighing against each other here and there's no reason to.

But in that time, I kind of just like really learned that church hurt comes from people and not from the Lord. It's the people that have the higher powers or so they think, and then they kind of ruin that perception of it. So it wasn't the Lord that did that to me, but we're supposed to be the church. It's not the church that did it, but everyone around it, so.

But in that time, I kind of just like really learned that church hurt comes from people and not from the Lord. It's the people that have the higher powers or so they think, and then they kind of ruin that perception of it. So it wasn't the Lord that did that to me, but we're supposed to be the church. It's not the church that did it, but everyone around it, so.

I definitely battled with it. I definitely went into a dark period and I mean, that trauma still somewhat carries with me with like my sleep schedule and stuff. Like he would drive by even after that happened. He would work night shifts. He worked as a youth pastor, but also had an actual job. And he worked night shifts at a company that wasn't far away from where I lived.

I definitely battled with it. I definitely went into a dark period and I mean, that trauma still somewhat carries with me with like my sleep schedule and stuff. Like he would drive by even after that happened. He would work night shifts. He worked as a youth pastor, but also had an actual job. And he worked night shifts at a company that wasn't far away from where I lived.

And he would drive by at 3 a.m. when he got off over and over in his truck. And so like anytime I hear that noise, I'm like still looking outside. And it's crazy because like, 3 a.m. to me is like not the good hour. I'm like, as long as I can make it past 3 a.m., then I'm good and like safe.

And he would drive by at 3 a.m. when he got off over and over in his truck. And so like anytime I hear that noise, I'm like still looking outside. And it's crazy because like, 3 a.m. to me is like not the good hour. I'm like, as long as I can make it past 3 a.m., then I'm good and like safe.

Yeah. And then a few years later, he actually reached out. I kept having someone call me in the middle of the night from a blocked number and it would freak me out because I already hate that time. And finally, when I answered, like I would just hear like deep breathing and I'm like, OK, even sketchier.

Yeah. And then a few years later, he actually reached out. I kept having someone call me in the middle of the night from a blocked number and it would freak me out because I already hate that time. And finally, when I answered, like I would just hear like deep breathing and I'm like, OK, even sketchier.