Kyle Carpenter

And I faded from consciousness in the world for what I thought was the last time.

So you thought you're dying.

certain without a doubt that that was it.

And, you know, I couldn't feel my face except for it to get a little graphic here.

I remember when I first woke up, I was trying to, I was trying to feel my mouth or my jaw with my tongue, but nothing was there.

And so but these final moments, you know, I was kind of because I couldn't feel my face.

I really didn't have that deep of sense of what was going on.

But I remember kind of crying a little bit in my head.

Not because it wasn't, why am I here?

You know, why did I even do this?

Why am I in this position?

It was more just, you know, I just turned 21 over there on my birthday, crawling through a field, getting shot at thinking, man, I hope one day I can get my first cold legal beer, you know?

Yeah.

But I just turned 21 and it was more just.

The heaviness of the moment.

The heaviness of the moment.

And maybe in some sort of subtle way, just knowing that

You know, this is it.

And I guess I don't get to experience the rest of my life.

Now, in hindsight, I still wouldn't change anything because I truly felt in my heart and I knew and I saw every day that we were there just helping a fellow struggling human being.