Ladi6

This is, I know their story like as if it was my story.

But that's really difficult for somebody that grows up with that because then you get to a certain point where you don't even know who you are.

You think you're your mum.

You know, you think you're your dad's story because their story was the testimony that helped others similar to them.

But where are you in this?

Like, who are you?

So it took a while for me to really – and still to this day it takes a while for me to try and identify who I am, especially having parents like that and then being fifth in the lineup of six siblings.

It's a lot of – and then 100 first cousins.

It's very hard to figure out who you are in amongst all that noise.

Yeah.

And, you know, this is the thing.

I could not, you know, I could spend all my time from now till I die and I could not make as much of an impact as my parents have made on the community, on people, you know.

I feel so lucky to have been witness to that, to have been a small part of that, you know, because they brought us to all the hui and they, you know, they made us get up and say hi.

you know, pepeha to people in the marae when they were having hui, you know, all these amazing things, you know, I got to do performing arts with all my cousins and then all my school friends, you know, mum got us all into it.

But, um, so I don't regret that that's the, that's the facts, that that's the truth that I, that I lost who I was within this amazing thing.

But, um,

But it is what it is, you know.

It doesn't mean that it didn't impact me the way I'm explaining.

And unfortunately it did.

And when I look at my siblings, I think it also impacted them too in that same way, you know.