Laura Gorman

So up and down and very different as well to what you would anticipate and expect.

I had intended to breastfeed and I breastfed my other children too and straight away they came out hungry and full term and fed straight away and latched.

So when baby Luke was born, straight away, I was emotional as to what can I do?

Will my milk come in?

What if my milk doesn't come in?

How will I feed my baby?

And knowing how precious breast milk is and that whole journey.

So straight away, when I left the delivery suite, I had my pack, a cholesterol pack for hand expressing.

I had instructions.

It was late on a Friday night.

I had my instructions on what I needed to do to help get the golden milk out, which is their cholesterol.

I hadn't harvested because it was way too early.

And so I hadn't thought about anything like that.

And I'd never hand expressed before.

So I had the instructions, I had the tubes to express the syringes and I managed to get some and I was rushing down to the NICU unit when I could to bring the milk because I was just so fearful of how is he going to feed if I'm not there beside him.

But everyone, you know, put my mind at ease to say don't worry right now, you know, he was on

different fluids, antibiotics and stuff at that time, and he didn't need a lot.

But when I got to give my syringe of cholesterol into his little mouth, although you go into this room and there's medicine, there's equipment, it's very scary, but to see milk that came straight from my breast into his little mouth and him move it around was just...

I can't describe the feeling to know that that came straight from me and it was his medicine.

So it was really, really nice.